Kirsti lisa michels

Female

nsw

Australia

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About my Loss:

i lost my mum to metastatic melanoma not long ago,its coming up to the first anniversery of her death! i was 18 when i lost her,i knew she was really sick but i just never thought she would actually die i just always though nah stuff like this doesnt happen to us she will be fine because she is my mum and she as to be fine.... in the last months of her life i wasnt working and became her carer,doing things a 18 year old shoulnt be doing,but i did it because i love her, me and my brothers and dad slept at the hospital the night before she died, my poor dad had to wake me and my brothers up by saying "your mother is gone" i thought i was dreaming i started yelling out "no,no she is not,no,no" but there she was in her hospital bed no longer breathing. ever since that day i have changed,i feel empty, and i cry alot,when i think of what happend i get so mad and take it out on other people. i just dont understand why this happend! i miss her so much she was the head of this family,she always had all the answers,and now i can just tell my dad is so lost,my brothers never speak about what happened, i just wish she was here to make it all better. i try really hard to warn my friends and family about the dangers of the sun and always tell them to put sunscreen on but they either dont take me seriously,and one of my friends even laughs at me when i tell her too. i dont understand how people can see how sick my mum was and that she died from this and not take it seriously! .. im just so mad and so lost,i need my mum she is suppossed to be here to see me and my brothers grow up,this just isnt fair!

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