My dad just passed away on October 23rd. He was in Mexico and I couldn't get the Mexican doctors to fill out the required FMLA paperwork. I feel so guilty for not being there when he needed me the most. I'm filled with remorse for not going to be with him and letting my employer rob me of that time with my dad. I've felt physically numb since receiving the news. I don't know how to feel. This is the first time I've lost a parent. My mom has dementia/ alzheimers so I'm also trying to deal with that at the same time. I'm overwhelmed by everything. When will I feel again? How can I move on when I feel robbed of saying goodbye? How do I find the strength to get up everyday? I can't eat or sleep. I feel as though the sadness is consuming me