My name is Georgia Garrison, having lived in Rome, Italy most of my adult life with my 2nd husband and now living in the United States.  I lost my husband a year and 2 months ago and am still feeling the ache, but it is starting to subside and felt I wanted to give a little hope to others with my comment.  You have stated up a wonderful site, as many of us have wondered just when we will start feeling more alive after our terrible losses.  I, too, love yoga, reading and writing.  It helps so much to forget the sadness.

Hi,

  My name is Anne Johnson. I lost my best friend, Rosie, to Ovarian Cancer, in July 5th, 2011. She was just 38 years old. I watched her fight, this long and hard battle, and I watched her take her last breath on July 5th. She was my heart, and soul, my sister, my sunshine, and happiness. I miss her so much at nights and on weekends sometimes it hurts. I loved her, and struggle to get through tings we loved to do together. I know she's no suffering but it doesn't make the hurt or ache go away.

My name is Tracey I am 46 yrs old and a widow and I just don't know how my world will ever be anything that I want to live in.. My Husband Gator as I call him. Walter Bottoms most called him Walt. He was the most loving and generous person. He was diagnosed with Bladder cancer in 2008. Had surgery and was cancer free by April 2009. Then in April 2011 the hip pain started. June 21st 2011 was told he had bone cancer. He had radiation treatment on right hip and his neck. After 3rd treatment he was laying in bed at home and had muscle spasm in right leg and it jerked and his hip broke. July 12th he had hip replacement surgery. he finished up his other 7 radiation treatments in between visits to hospital for blood transfusions for low red and white blood counts. We entered hospice program in October just after his 69th birthday. I took care of him day and night. Spent as much time as we could with family and friends. Mostly with our kids who would come visit as often as possible. His Sister Wandola was my rock. It hurt her as much as it did me to see him struggling to stay alive. He always worried about making sure everyone else was alright. Always tried and succeeded in making you smile even through tears. He finally went to Heaven in the early morning hours of December 3rd 2011. Surrounded by a house full of 6 of our children and his 2 brothers and Wandola and 1 son-in-law and 1 sister-in-law. He was definately surrounded by love. And I lost the love of my life. I feel so heart broke and so lonely. I just miss his touch and looking in his eyes and seeing those beautiful blue eyes full of so much love and kindness. He was my world and I just don't know how this hurt is going to go away...