Hi everyone.well its been 8months since my sister melissa passed away & i still hate saying that.tomorrow we will have a meeting with the hospital finally after all this time they have done a report about what happened to her.i still wish & dream this isnt true.my life isnt the same i hate my life everything i do reminds me of her.i just want her back & i cant get passed that feeling.

hi i have learnt to keep my saddness to myself yetzy ,the pain is terrible & no one but u knows how you feel. i have learnt that my pain for my sister i will always feel i have seen doctors they listen but they cant take away how you feel, i still hate thinking she is not here with me, my life has changed forever & i will always miss her & love her & my heart will always be broken in a way that will never be fixed & sometimes i even hate her a little for leaving me alone.how are you feeling yetzy? do you have anyone you can talk to?i hope you find a place where you can express everything as even though its hard to cry & let yourself feel your pain its what you should do.i hope things are getting better for you in your life & remember you are imporant so dont forget you.

hi Yetzy & Nadia,its 9 months today i havent see my sister or heard her voice its all true no one knows how we feel but you two write how i feel so i could be wrong. i know its hard Nadia to talk about your sister with the children as they dont fully understand but that is the way they will know her & remember  her because of you..sometimes i think what if i died what would i want my sister to do & i try to do that.my sister was a beautiful girl inside & out she was only 23 so she didnt get to have children so you are very lucky you have gifts like children to remember her by..i have heaps of pictures & songs & of course memories that will never be taken away from me like she was..sometimes i sit & think is this really my life how do i find my way without her im not alone but without her i feel alone..