Oh Laura - what a wonderful story - I think it's amazing the way our Angels continue to look after us.
Hugs
Gail xx

Ann - I'm glad that article was helpful to you and your husband and the others you met. As Laura mentioned before, sometime things are more than coincidences. I am so glad you had the chance to pass it on to those who really needed it.
Hugs
Gail xx

that is really beautiful. may she watch over you always. she is there with you all the time

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Can Thanksgiving be only days away? I have so much to be thankful for but I find myself saddened that our daughter won't be here again this year to share it with us. Holidays are the hardest for all of us. Everyone walks around all joyous when all I want is to get them over with. A part of me died the day our daughter died. There will always be that empty, lonely place inside me. I am praying for everyone, that you get the love, comfort and support you need as these holiday's pass by us.

I Hate & Dread the holidays - Will be so glad when they are over-

Wishing everyone peace over the holidays - I know how hard this time of year is for Bereaved parents and hope that you all manage to find a little piece of happiness with family and friends. Of course, there is a huge piece of your 'celebration' missing - I hope you all have the support and love of people who understand how you must be feeling.
Take care everyone and big hugs all round

Gail xx

Wishing you all the comfort and support we all will need, May we all cry alot, love alot, and eat little.. :),

"Hugs Love & Strength to all of you"

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Thanks to you all for being here. I needed a little quiet time before putting on my "happy holiday face" so I checked the site this morning. The comments by Gail, Katherine, Karen and Wendy were very much appreciated. I too want to remember all that I have to be thankful for...but admittedly this day will be better when it is behind me.
If this is a holiday where you live let me know how you spent your day. I value your input more than from well-wishers who have no idea what we are going through.
Peace, Allan

I set here alone on a holiday I use to enjoy (thanksgiving) I just couldnt find the strength to put on that fake face I needed to to go be with hubbys & my family. They are all caring people I love - I just struggle to be - let alone be around people - the look in their eyes when they look at me is just more than I can take - and the children all seem afraid of me now. (i use to be the fun aunt) So I sent what is left of my family on with out me. at least to the first stop (meal) hubbys family - later I have to see if I can go to my sisters, thought it was going to be a small gathering & now it is 28 - I just dont think I can do it..... just thinking of walkin into those places today & I cant seem to stop my tears from flowing-
How do I go to a family gathering without my Brad---? Yes, I have done this - I struggle so deeply & pretty much shake all day. so why- why do I feel so guilty for not going?
ok- main answer - it is not fair to the family I have left. I just cant seem to find the strength ...........

Hope all of you are feeling stronger than me- but, I am going go ahead & post this just in case anyone else is struggling to this extent today.

Karen - I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time today but quite understand how you feel. And yes, we do these 'festive' things for our families and friends but sometimes we need to do something for US the way we feel we want to do it. If that is sitting on your own this year, do it. Last year at Christmas I decided that I wanted to forget the whole day - and I did. I had a sandwich, sitting on the couch watching movies and not celebrating the day at all. That felt good. No pretence, no masks, no empty laughter.
Once these holidays are over we can get a little peace..... until the next one. I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad and hope that Brad will send you a special Angel hug to help you get through the day.
With a big hug from me too xxxx

Thanks Gail

Karen, on Thanksgiving day I'm glad you got to do what YOU wanted to do and not let others tell you different. It's been longer for me so the pain is a bit softer now, plus I had to worry about my other 2 children and my grandchildren were here. I didn't invite any of my family to come, just couldn't put up with so many around. Unfortunately Christmas is just around the corner. May we all find the strength to get through that one.

every morning i wake up wishing my beautiful angle that was only 6 whould come and almost tackle me hugging me and telling me i am the best mommy ever. It has only been since apirl 1 2009. my husbands stupied x told me at some point you have to move on. we could have been friends before that but how do you get over the loss of your hart and soul? I use to love the holidays the look on the kids faces now it seams so empty. she loved the hoildays soooo much i am crying as i write this. I orderd her tombstone i cant even find a word to say about that. Her father never did anything but dissapoint her i left him when she was little becuse he was abusive. I am sure he never even cares 4 days before the tragick wreck she wrote him a letter telling him how mad she was i had to write it for her while she told me what to say. I know you are not suppose to hate people but i do he could have given her the only thing i couldnt. we were moving into my husbands house at the time of her death. he is a wonderful man and step father. i wish it whould not have happend so soon cuz he was going to adopt her. he had to identafie her body the rest of us were hurt. I have a grate friend of my mothers that is in all ways that counts my kids grandmother and my aunt. she couldnt do it she isnt legally family. n can u belive the scum bag that donated the sperm to make my angle is trying to get money from me. i was awarded a settletment like thay put a price on her life i am half tempted to give it tp him its blood money but i can never work again so i have to keep it to live on. the wreck took so much from me in just a miniute. I never got to see her again i was to injured to leave the hospital i acktully didnt leave that place until a month after the funeral. last thing i said 2 her was i love you baby. i never imagend she wouldnt ever be able to say it back or me to her again. i miss her soo much it kills me
my family tip toes around me i hate cars and never leave my house unless i have to. i am only 25 and i know i have many hart braking years ahead of me when she was robbed of everything. only 6 she didnt get the chance to go to a dance have a boyfriend r anything i wonder what it whould be like for her she was so special took so much joy from life. such a wonderful sweet young lady so geniune and kind the best kid anyone could ask for if i had known her life was going to stop after only 6 years i dont know what i whould have done diffrent probley not worry so much about cleaning instead of playing outside with her she truley was perfect. i want to die somedays just to see her again and i have to other but still feal that way

Sherry, I am so sorry for your loss. My 33 year old daughter (and only child) was killed on May 25, 2009, so I know your pain. We do not "get over" our loss but instead learn to cope with our loss day to day. I will NEVER stop thinking about my daughter, NEVER stop missing her, NEVER stop loving her and NEVER stop asking God why she was taken so soon. We NEVER expect to bury our children. Some people just don't get it and NEVER will. Like you I just want to die and will just have to wait for that day when I am reunited with her. My daughter's name is Angela and now she is my Angel.
Take care and come back often to let us know how you are doing.
Laura

thank you so much it means alot comeing from someonee in our tragic boat thank you for your supporgt and kind words it means alot.

You are very welcome...I see you live in Texas, too. I was born, raised and live in San Antonio.

I AM NOT STRONG
Laura Villarreal
November 3, 2009


I see the faces of family and friends with expressions that say “how strong she is”.
Nothing could be further from the truth and the reality is this…

Emptiness is what fills my soul; questions to God fill my head.
My heart will not accept that you are gone and I can make no sense of your untimely death.

I have no feelings and do not care but to say this aloud I do not dare.
Being with you is all I want and this cannot happen soon enough.

But once again it’s not up to me so until that time I will continue to grieve.
Breathing is one thing I do very well and everything else can go to hell.

So please don’t think that I am strong because that would be so very wrong.
I am a mother who has lost her child and this has broken me down, made me incomplete.

I was shattered into a million pieces and gathering them up is a hopeless task.
My heart is missing several pieces, cremated with you, and scattered towards heaven.

Life has changed, a new road to travel but the ride is bumpy and I am alone.
No more child to light my way and bring me comfort on a dreary day.

You are dearly loved and words cannot describe the agony that burns inside.
I miss you, Angela, I really do and any strength I had died with you.

i hear that alot 2 if thay only knew our strength died with our kids

Sherry, i lost my son on Feb.6, 2009, i talk to him everyday it is the only way i no how to cope, with him not being here. i have four other children who i'm trying help cope to. Everyone told them they had to be strong for me, (what is wrong with people, kids should not have to be strong for anyone).

Laura, your words are so right on the money.

Karen, this year we didn't go anywhere and we made it through the day,
my house was free of the rush, rush, rush, and we all felt better for it.
My family (sisters & Mother) kept trying to get us to go out but , i stood my ground and did what i thought was best for me and my children. and it was good. Didn't even get dressed.

Love ya all,
Wendy

ya i have a 9 year old and 4 yr old that lost there best friend and sister. the 9 year old felt bad cuz she got out and got help that saved my life but couldnt help her little sister. The 4 year old is really confused she thought she was coming back, we convinced her along with time that wasnt gonna happpen. she says she is with jesues and goes to church but says at jesues is the cemetary. i write to katelyne she talks to her and hugs her flowers when we go out there. thay were always together now our family seams so broken. i dedacated a wall n my house to her its called katelyns corner. i will post a pic of what it looks like for an idea i am not sure if it is good for them or bad i do not want the 4 year old to forget her. The 9 year old gets so sad but understands verry well. She is doing better than me she told me one day she wished she had a time machince n i asked her why she said so she could go back and take me out becouse of my injurys. i said and help katelyne 2 hu? she said no god was going to take her that day no matter what. she herself flat lined at 4 days old but thay brought her back.

Wendy, I applaud you for standing your ground and doing what you thought was best for you and your family! At times I almost feel bullied by family members who think they know what is best for me!

Sherry, I have the fireplace mantle and wall dedicated to my daughter. A wooden box carved with a rose holds her cremains. Pink roses in a pink vase sit on the mantle. My favorite portrait of her hangs over the fireplace mantle. A tress of hair lays across the box and a framed letter describing who received her tissue/bone donations is also there. Her favorite bottle of perfume is there and several momentos of Alaska, where she lived and died, have a special place on the mantle. I also keep a candle lit 24/7. I believe we do these things because they just feel right. It also sounds like your 9 year old is very wise for her age.

Take care, hugs to you and your girls.
Laura

Love & Understanding to all of you -- & BIG HUGS
Wendy I am glad you stood your ground on TG. My 2 other kids & hub wanted to go to the family dinners - I didn't & just couldnt get a grip so as I said sent with without me.
Laura - Yes bullied is a good word, I am certain they want to help - BUT...
Sherry - Yes I too like Laura have my mantle completely dedicated to Brad. And many other areas as well. I also keep a candle lit 24/7 one on each side of his picture & one over at his resting place as well. I like all of you other ideas too. Laura have you had any communication with any of the donor receipiants? I keep in touch with one of my sons.

Love & strength to us all - Looking forward to the holidays being over....... I had to go into a store yesterday & on the way in heard a mother call for her son "Bradley" my knees went weak & I wanted to throw up ---- although happy for her- My Bradley is gone... and then as my ears stopped ringing from it all - of course there was cheerful christmas music playing.... I had to get out of there fasttttt --- it is all just so hard - like acid to an already destroyed heart.

Dear Group,
Here's my latest dilemma. Over the holidays a large box came to reside at my house. My daughter's husband Shawn left the army and has taken a new civilian job in Kentucky. Before moving he packed and sent this large box of Callie's clothes for us to have. Since it is just a box of clothes, the plan is that some will be kept but the rest will be given to Goodwill. One of Callie's sisters wants to make a quilt out of some of the pieces of clothing...but of course she cant get around to it now. So there it sits, this the large box of Callie's clothes. My wife wants me to put it away somewhere. After all she says, we have a Christmas decorations and a tree to put up, and you cant just leave a box sitting in the middle of the floor in the living room. But there it is. Just sitting there.
I am not ready to touch, hold and feel her things - let alone put them away in a closet or store room or have to decide which to give away. Not yet. Maybe that will be a turning point in my grief work - the day when I finally decide to move the box. But for now there it is.

Allan, I understand and know just how you feel. When I returned home from Fairbanks I had a large suitcase with lots of Angela's clothes and purses; the suitcase remained in the extra bedroom, on the bed, wide open for about 2 months. I could not bring myself "to put away" her things. It's really hard to explain...I felt that by storing her personal items I was putting her away and I did not want that to happen. I could make no sense of what I was thinking. When I finally made the decision to carefully store her belongings I cried the whole time. I also apologized to Angela for having "to put away" her things, reassuring her and myself, this was not "out of sight, out of mind". I'm not sure if this makes sense but it's just what I felt at the time.
Take care.
Laura

Allan - grief has to be handled one day at a time - no-one can push you to go any faster than your heart wants to go.
It was a little different for me with Meshael being so young, all her things were in her room just as she left them. I was the one who had to box them up and it had to be in my own time. Hence, it took a good five years before the last of her little treasures were packed up and put away.
When it is the right time for you - you will know. Try to make sure that you have plenty of company around you - it's a heartbreaking task but it does help, as Laura said, to talk to Callie as you do it. Ask her if it's OK to give her things to who-ever and don't be surprised if you get some confirmation that it is!
You are correct in saying that when you are ready to move the box it will be a turning point. Just for now, push the box against the wall or in another room (to appease the family) and don't open it until you are strong enough. You and only you will know when that time is right.
Take care
Gail

Dear Group,
Thank you so much for listening and for your feedback. It's like I know all the right answers, but gosh, this is hard. Gail, you are further down the road in this process and it gives me great hope that eventually I will be in a better spot than where I am today. After years of having the sun continue to rise and set I suppose one arrives at a point where it is no longer a question whether or not you can go on. It just happens.

Not long after my daughter's death a well meaning member of my church said to me how much I had been an inspiration to her. My immediate response was to say, I don't want to be an inspiration I just want to be normal again. I realize now that I should have simply said thank you. I could never begin to feel your hurt over the loss of Meshael, but somehow it gives me comfort that if you can survive, perhaps I can too. Thanks for your words.

Laura, your loss is still so fresh and I am so sorry Angela is not with you. I guess like you I am still feeling the need to talk to my daughter about her things. Granted, she would probably laugh and say, Oh Dad it's just a bunch of stupid shirts and pants! On the other hand if she were here she would need them. I still have her number on speed dial on my phone. I wish I could call her...I would give anything to hear her laugh again.

Dear Group,
Remember my story about the box of clothes belonging to my daughter that has taken up residence in my living room? (Now simply called "the box" - kind of like the elephant in the living room) Well today we had a minor breakthrough.

The weather turned cold and snowy here in west Texas. Callie's younger sister Jessica needed a jacket to fit over her pregnant belly. A good spirit was present when Jessica opened the box and found one of Callie's army issue coats. She is so proud of her sister and misses her so much. This small action was a source of comfort to us. Thought I'd share it.
Thanks for listening. Allan

Thank you for sharing, Allan.

Guess that was sort of 'the confirmation' you needed Allan - we call those warm feelings of comfort 'Angel Hugs' - you will too.
Gail

God’s Greatest Work of Art

If a picture is worth a thousand words
And nothing worthwhile is ever lost
Then what is the value of memories
For those who paid the highest cost?

When a parent loses a child
Words become a useless tool
There is nothing to be said to undo the hurt
And feeble attempts are only cruel

A hug heart to heart in warm embrace
Surpasses any useless phrase
Shared tears and shared memories
More healing than funeral sprays

A photograph is a moment in time
And sometimes it can capture our soul
A place we can find solace in memories
To fill an empty hole

The triggered memories are priceless
For in a flood of tears we cannot see
And we must travel inward
to seek one’s own empathy

To empathize with ourselves
For the heart can heal all things
We all have what it takes…
A song bird is meant to sing

Our hearts are the greatest gift
That lies within our grasp
To endure the clinging agony
And find some peace at last

We must make new memories
That can only glorify the old
We can use our heart to heal ourselves
Our story must be told

Our grief should not be a secret
Death is not a curse
Living life without Joy
Is an existence so much worse

Brighten up someone else’s day
It will illuminate you own
And plant the seeds of destiny
That has a purpose and should be sown

Yes a picture is worth a thousand words
So share those pictures from your heart
Filibuster your child’s life to one and all
They are God’s greatest work of art.
- MC/9/09

Mitch Carmody

Today the Christmas tree is up. Some years are easier than others. This year I just feel empty. I don't think we would have placed one in our home had it not been for our grand-daughters living with us. How they fill our hearts and bring smiles to our faces. I pray all of you have someone in your lives that help yo...u do that. The holidays seem to be the worst. All those holiday shoppers out there smiling, shopping with their children when ours aren't with us. I just want to go up to them and tell them how lucky they are. Each night we will light our angel candle next the picture of our daughter, that is the closes we can get to her. I pray for each and every one of us, that we have the strength to indure the rest of this year. That we all have a better New Year. God Bless Everyone. (my words I just posted the same thing on different sites

"That" time of year is upon us. The big holiday. It's so hard to put up the tree, go shopping, bake the cookies and be happy. When what we really want is just to crawl in bed and hide until it's over. I pray for all of us that we find the strenght to get though it and find a moment of peace. God Bless you.

Will be a relief when the holidays are over !!! All the lights, carols, etc.... make me sort of angry !!! Then people say Happy Holidays or Merry Christmas , & all the )O&(&(&(*. Kill me now - pleaseeeeeeeeee.

I know how you feel Karen - I truly hate this time of year too. And it seems to go on forever doesn't it? I'm doing the very least I can get away with again - no decorations yet, I have to put up a tree for my foster daughter's sake but will leave it till the very last minute. I ordered all my gifts on-line to avoid the Christmas shopping experience that I can well do without! Just hang in there hun, it'll soon be over. And we're all here for one another when it all gets too much. Hugs xxxxx

Damn Damn Damn - ! ! ! The only son I have left all but cut some fingers off last night. Time will tell if they were saved & if he has use of them. He is in college to be a physican assistant & hoped to work with orthopedic surgery. He may have lost that tonight too. It was his right hand & yes he is right handed. AHHHHHH !!!!!! A hand surgeon/plastic surgeon did surgey in the ER, saw blade destroyed a knuckle in the middle & pointer finger as well as nerves & tendons. No pins because the bones were splintered. they tried to sew them together.
time will tell...

Oh Karen, I am so sorry! I will say special prayers for a speedy recovery. I know a little about PAs and I don't think this will keep him from continuing on his path to being a PA.
Keep us posted.
Take care.

Karen - adding my prayers too. They can do some absolutely wonderful things these days so don't give up hope. Please wish him well Karen and let us know how it goes. Hugs x

It's 2 am and I should be going to bed. It has been such a bad day today I just don't think I can sleep nor do I want to close my eyes. I was handling Christmas pretty well, just trying to concentrate on our two grand-daughters, 3 and 6. But it really hit me today that again this year a place will be empty. The lau...ghter less. The joy gone. I thought I was stonger but then a day like this sneaks in and I find I"m at the bottom looking up. It was a shock the way it hit me.To top this off I used the wrong debt card and now have over $150.00 in overdrafts to pay. Someone forgot to put the meat in the freezer when I got home from the store, it sat out all night out, I don't know how to tell if it's good or not. That's another $175.00. Medical bills are piling up from my husband's cancer. No money to buy the children gifts. How do you tell them Santa is broke?? I've kept it positive but tonight it just crashed in on me. I can't see a Miracle coming anytime soon. Life just doesn't seem to give us a break. I am thankful for what we have, but angery for what is not. Ashamed for feeling like this. Are we all being tested somehow? Why? When does life let up? Thank you all for letting me sound off here. I didn't know where else to turn........

Love & Strength to all of you at a time of year that holds so many treasured memories of years past & so much pain since losing our children. Love to you all !!!

Sending love and strength to us all at this time of year - please know that you are all in my heart and I'm sending hugs and healing light to help us get through these days in one piece. Thank you all for your words of comfort and guidance - what would I do without you all??? xx

Checking in on everyone- Hope your having a strong day- !!! Wish I had some great advise - But, I too just hurt so so so so bad - life is so very hard without my son. Sending love to all of you who understand this pain as well (( HUG ))

Karen, thanks for checking in on us...it's been okay but right now I feel an anxiety attack coming on. Deep breaths...good thoughts. I can do the deep breaths I just can't conjure up "good" thoughts during this time. I really appreciate the virtual hugs...they ease the hurt just a bit and I'll take what I can get at this time!

then hugs it is:

Dear Grief Support group,
It has been several weeks since I last wrote an entry. I want to let everyone know that I am still part of the group and want to stay involved. The xmas holidays were predictably stressful but staying busy helped. Following the holidays my wife and I took some time off for our anniversary. Last week I went with a mission group to central america for a week. Staying busy helps but I still dont do well at nights. February 2 brings the first anniversary of my daughter's death. Since this will be a major time for me I will be checking in. No need to comment for now, I just wanted to let you all know I am still involved and value your input very much. Peace to all of you. Allan

hi group,It has been awhile since my last entry. I have been dealing with alot. me n my brother got n an argument as did me and my husband and both always wanna say something about my angle. why do people do that? I miss my katelyne everyday. I got her a teddybear n chocklates ND little more stuff for valintines day i miss her so much its unreal. Never in a million years did i ever imagen something like this whould ever happen. i am careful we make sure seat belts are on. There is just so much i do not understand. now my X is trying to sue me and he was never in her life becouse he use to hit me so i left. he thought if i wasnt with him he didnt have a kid either. No all of the sudden hes running around saying i killed my baby i wasnt driving and no charges we brought on my mom not even a ticket. i pray for forgivness for the hate i feal tords him

Checking in-----
Brad would have been 19 yesterday----
Thinking of you all....... I have been really struggling & haven't felt as though I would be much good to anyone here- but- My heart breaks for you all as we suffer the loss of our children.
Love & Strength to you all !!!!!!!
((( HUGS )))

Karen - oh I'm so sorry, I had no idea and wish there was some way of posting those dates so we could make an effort to be there for you!
When you are struggling is the best time to be here - share some of the pain with others that know what you're dealing with.
Sending belated birthday wishes for your wonderful son and a cyber hug or three for you. Please don't feel that you can't post at times like this. Message me off group anytime Karen - please!
Hugs xxx

Just joined your group and am feeling much pain right now. Have lost two sons - one from a suicide and the other a murder. The anniversary is coming up for both of their deaths the first week of Feb. and I start feeling the anxiety. They were both adults when they died. Also lost my husband as well and do sometimes wonder who I miss more and who am I grieving for. I'm here to support all of you but right now it hurts. Thank you so much.