I'm still missing my dad, too, dream moon JO B. It's been four years since he died, and I still wish we could talk, and enjoy movies and music together as we did for many years. But the years went by too quickly. Even the happy memories still make me sad, because I am alone. I have a roommate, but it's not the same as living with someone who knew me and loved me since the day I was born, and vice versa. It's hard to meet people who are kind and genuine. My dad was the kindest and most genuine person I ever knew.
I just had another birthday without my dad. I had a fairly nice birthday with lots of people sending me their good wishes, mostly on Facebook, but I still miss my dad. It was so wonderful to have someone in my life who understood me, who would never leave me and who was the only person I could ever trust completely. I couldn't even trust my own mother because she abandoned me when I was only three years old.
Thank you, dream moon JO B. Yes, it's just not the same without our loved ones. Even if I were to meet someone I think is wonderful, there's no guarantee he or she would stay in my life, but the love of a good parent only dies when they do. Dogs are pretty faithful but they can't talk.
it leastt anmilss dont tell u how we shud feal o grieff thy do not
thy dont say get ovrit or foget abot yore dad r fogett u had a dad coz im not bean fair ther to fealins wish mask me feal bad for bean bad to ther fealinss i ct do wot thy wnt i can notwish can mak me f feal look bad not thm
why is it 1s notlossno 1 mak u feal bad for loss we had
I know what you mean, dream moon JO B. People want us to be happy so they don't have to feel sad with us. It's all about their feelings, not ours. If they haven't lost anyone, then they don't know how it feels, and if they did lose someone close, then maybe they didn't love that person as much or feel as close or have as much fun as we did with our dads, so they will never know the pain of such a loss. But it's also kind of sad for them, that missed out on a wonderful relationship for whatever reason. They just add to our pain by making us feel guilty for being sad and making them uncomfortable. All I can say is their time to grieve will come soon enough, if they care about anybody in this world. Maybe it will be over an animal instead of a human being, and then they will know how it feels. Then someone will tell them to snap out of it.
dream moon JO B, your messages touched my heart. I feel the same way about my dad. We also were soul mates. Once you've known such happiness with another person it's hard to live without it. We watched Kukla, Fran and Ollie on tv together when I was a girl. It was so much fun going to the movies together but that pretty much stopped after we got a vcr in 1982. Then we watched thousands of movies together on videos and dvd's. My dad's brothers shared his love for the old films and music, but they're gone, too. It was so much fun when we'd all get together to watch an old western or a musical. A family favorite was Buck Jones. I'd love to find a new movie companion. My current roommate is too grumpy to be much fun.
me dad luvd harrry pottr moviess we did we wear goin 2 watchh ;lastt 1 p1 thn we wear goin to get p2 of lastt 1 but nevr got rond to doin it i saw p2 of lst 1 in stowee
I feel the same way about my dad's favorite movies. I can't watch them without missing him. There's a huge part of my life that I lost because I can't enjoy a lot of things anymore because he's not here with me. When I see videos of old films or songs on YouTube that I think he would have enjoyed, it just kills me. And it hurts even more when I see the video was uploaded while he was still alive. How did I ever miss it before! It makes me feel guilty that I didn't look hard enough before.
Yes, it would be so nice to have them back just the way they used to be. Today I had a good cry, because my roommate was mean to me and when I defended myself, then he blamed me for raising his blood sugar. My dad had diabetes, too, but I helped him get his sugars down to normal, and I helped cure gangrene on his toes from peripheral arterial disease, but this roommate of mine won't let me help him. I hate to see people destroying themselves and then try to take me down with them. My dad was such a saint compared to most people. If only he had watched his diet more carefully years ago, but he didn't want to listen. He had a sweet tooth and loved refined carbos and processed meats. And the trouble is I enjoyed these unhealthy foods right along with him, until he started to be ill, and then I felt so sorry that he couldn't enjoy tasty food anymore. When you have congestive heart failure even a bologna sandwich can send you to the hospital on account of too much salt. Life is so cruel sometimes, but I thank God that he enjoyed good health for most of his life. He was a boxer in the army during the Korean War, and he used to walk a lot up these steep hills. In fact, he was so fit, we didn't know he had advanced heart disease until he was in his 80's.
dream moon JO B, are you saying that your dad told one of his dirty jokes through the medium at the spiritualist church? That's amazing! I have five different friends who have gone to a spiritualist church to try to hear from their loved ones who have passed on. They are convinced that the dead live on in the afterlife. However, I am afraid to go to the spirit church because I heard that bad spirits can imitate our loved ones, too, and I don't want a bad spirit following me home. One Chinese friend told me that his brother went to an antique store and when he came home, his other brother who is psychic, asked him, "Where have you been, because you brought some spirits home with you." He had been looking at some old Chinese funeral shrines at the antique shop. I have heard so many stories from people I know who claim to have seen or heard spirits, that I think they must exist.
I am a newbie. I lost my father on May 22nd at 2.22am. He was 92 years old. Loosing him is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I really miss him. We were able to have a funeral for him but there were so many things we couldn't do because of the virus Covid 19. My mom, sister and myself were with him when he passed away which was great. But I just can't get it out of my mind. He had Alzhiemers and Congestive heart failure. It was so hard that last week of his life to see him suffer like he did. I have not been able to sleep ever since. Everyone really loved my dad. He was such a good person, very passive, respectful and non judgemental. He made sure us kids had everything we needed when growing up and then was there always for his 21 grand children. I have some wonderful memories of a full and grateful life my dad gave to me and my siblings. But I now have this void. I keep being told he is in a better place, and that is true but I want him here with me and then I feel selfish about that. I used to think that if I could go before him I wouldn't be in so much pain of loosing him. The fact that I am never going to see him again is so terribly difficult for me. I miss him so much. I love him so much. And have had some unusual things happen since his passing. No matter how you look at it, there is nothing worse then loosing a parent when it comes to death. You have known them the longest and they are or should be always there for you. Both my parents were absolutely wonderful in that area. I guess maybe it helps to write my thoughts down, good therapy maybe. But still I will always have this piece of my heart missing, a void in my life. I want to hold his hand and kiss his cheek and tell him I love him. But I can never do that again. I guess that is it for now. Sorry for this being so long. Stay safe and healthy everyone. Thank you for your patience. Hugs to all that have lost a parent, I understand your loss. Stay strong and talk to someone you love about what you are going through. That is the only thing that helps me. Thanks again. MaryKay
Welcome, Mary Kay, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I can relate to everything you wrote about the loss of your beloved dad, except I was alone with him in the hospital when he passed away. It's the worst thing in the world to lose the person you love best, no matter what relation they are to you. I don't have any relatives close by to comfort me. I do have a grumpy roommate though who is better than nothing, but now he's in the hospital with Covid-19! These are very stressful times for most people, so I can only imagine how hard it is to lose your dear father. It's horribly hard even in the best of times. My dad also had congestive heart failure and he died just two days after Christmas in 2014.
My heart goes out to you and I hope you will find some comfort in expressing your feelings. Everyone here understands what you are going through. God bless you and give you strength to carry on and support your mother in this time of sorrow.
Even after five years I still miss my dad terribly but the intensity of grief does diminish over time. You never get over it, you just learn to live with it. I wish you the very best as you begin your journey through grief. Take care, and remember you were as much a blessing to your father as he was to you.
I am so sorry Mary Kay. Our hearts were broken when we lost our dad. My sister-in-law had told us to prepare that tears and grief would come in waves...out of nowhere. One of my cousins had lost her dad before us and she spoke some wise words to us: (please forgive the bad word.) "Dear, dear Cousins, It's gonna hurt like a sonofabitch for awhile. Then one day will come when you notice you haven't thought about it for an hour or so. And then the times between will get longer. And then something, you never know what, will grab at your heart and it will hurt just like it did at first. Those of us who have already lost their dads wish we could take some of the pain away. But as I told my boys when their daddy died - the saddest thing would be that if nobody cared, nobody cried. God is good and faithful and will get you through."
Another dear friend said there will come a day when we will be able to share memories of him without crying...I was clinging for that day.
i lost my father on jan 25,1999. my whole world crashed . and i came to a complete stop everything stopped for me in my life . i was a daddys girl he was my everything. now i lost mom as well in march2020 to cancer. its not a good feeling .u think ur world stops for the first parent second one its even harder yet bc its ur last parent it hit me like a ton of bricks.
The relationship with my father was more than strained, for many years. I came from a dysfunctional family that is over 5 miles long. I hated my father for years. I don't want to get into the specifics as to why. Let's just say, "The stress of seeing my mom beaten on on a regular basis, caused me to have dark circles under my eyes before I reached puberty". Although I was never beat on by dad, I still had a resentment towards my father that branched further than anger.
However, I found out in 2007 (I think) that dad's heart was in pretty bad shape, and his doctor was talking about putting a stent in it. I didn't see my father for a couple years after I heard about his heart. The man was running away from something so, it was never a necessity for me to know his every move. At this point in my life, it was a great relief for dad to leave the city of Houston or the entire state of Texas.
February 7, will be 2 years since he passed, and due to my husband passing 2 months and 2 days after dad, the grief of dad is just now catching up with me.
Get ready, those who love country music and George Strait. He's sick enough that he's cancelled a show, his wife has been trying for a week to get his fever down. Not COVID-19. A rare disease that is directly related to pneumonia. I don't like saying this but, a couple of hours ago, I heard his song "Troubadour". Reminded me that dad liked "Amarillo By Morning" so, I put the song on YouTube on my phone. When the song was over I said, "Everybody needs to get all of his memorabilia they can because when he's gone the prices are going through the roof. He's not going to pass in the next 5 years, more like the next couple of months". I had no idea where it came from, and still don't. I asked Google if he's sick and the first 2 articles I read were about the very rare disease related to pneumonia.
I hope everyone had a great day, today. I, on the other hand, had better than a great day. This is, in spite of my best friend of 30 years deciding to be judgemental and tell me how I'm supposed to be grieving. She's almost 15 years into her grief, and she knows it all.
@pennywyze, don't you just love people who tell us how we are suppose to grieve and how we are suppose to feel. I also have a so called friend that tells me how I am suppose to feel about everything. I am trying gracefully to get her out of my life. I'm allowed my feelings and emotions - they are real. Everyone is grieving the way they grieve. You can't tell a person how to grieve, yet, people do. Enough out of me. Wishing everyone a good week to come.
Been missing my dad a lot lately. He might have been a jerk most of my childhood, but he began treating me like an adult when I became one. That caused me to respect him more, and I respected him as though he was God. Not because he made me, but because mom was a stickler for my showing dad respect. Including lying to him and talking bad to him.
I'm still trying to figure out how & when I can grieve the 5 people I lost, individually. I could've been able to grieve those members of my family at different times of their deaths were spread out over time. But the 5 people I lost were gone between February of 2019 and April 2020 so, there's my conundrum.
Hi I'm Carie. I lost my father last month and am having such a hard time with it I can't get over the fact my brother won't speak to me haven't heard from him since the service I understand he is grieving also I also understand people grieve differently but I just want to be there for him also
Hello. I’m new to the group. I lost my dad about a month ago. We had a very complicated relationship. I guess I just don’t know if I’m processing this like I should be. I tend to push down emotions instead of feeling them.
I miss my Dad every day, he passed away in 2004, I was at his side, no one can even come close to what a loving human being he was. My partner is a very loving guy and he is about as good as it gets so I am blessed (at last after many attempts at trusting the wrong people). My Dad was a great dancer too, he taught me how to dance the waltz, I stood on his feet and learned, I became a dance teacher. He drove me to track and field practice, dance class and that was after his work, he loved my Mom very much and my 2 brothers. We had a nice family until my big brother died suddenly in an accident, I was 17 and had no skills to cope, I tried to help my Mom & Dad but we never really got over that loss. Mom is gone now too, but what remains is their love, they live on in my heart..I try to be a good person and help others, I have made mistakes but forgave myself for not being perfect. Blessings to all.
Hi, I'm Nikki. I lost my father almost two years ago on 10/28/2022 to drug addiction. Many thoughts have been in my head since then, but the main being that I miss him so much and always saw passed his addiction. He never did drugs around me or my siblings but could tell that his body was declining due to it. The night he passed away, I was the one to find my father slowly falling to the ground and I recall being scared, shocked, worried, and sad. It's hard thinking about this moment as it was the last time, I saw my dad living. I was able to see to say goodbye one last time at the hospital, yet he was no longer living. Even though he didn't respond, I knew he could hear me still. During the last time I saw my father, my mother and older sibling was present. As I laid next to my father grieving, my older siblings said strong words of hatred to my dad that I don't remember or want to remember as I was so angry at them in that moment and continue to be angry with them until this day. Yet in the moment, I remember saying something like "don't say to him" and didn't acknowledge my sibling as I only had a few moments that I would ever see my father again, and it wasn't about them. Despite my dad's struggle with drugs, I was never angry with my dad even though the drugs caused him to decline and become uninvolved with the family. He always showed happiness around me, and sang, and gave me helpful advice on my bad days.
Not everyone is as accepting or understanding of drug addicts as I am, and unfortunately there are members in my family that had a strong hatred towards my dad due to it. Yet, I always stood up for my dad, no matter the choices he made. For the longest time I thought to go to my dad to ask if he could stop, but never did as I knew it became a dependency on his body. I haven't shared this story with anyone besides my family and partner and growing up only a few of closet friends knew about my dad's drug history as it's something very personal, so writing this brings out a bit of relief. I thank my dad for giving me life, and truly giving me life as he adopted me at the age of two and has been my father until my age of 21. I miss you so much Dad.
My Dad was such a good father. I never felt unloved. He was always there for me. He found cancer three times to stay with mom and me. He fought like hell and I miss him everyday. Him and Mom are together now. There's some comfort in that. I hope I told him I love him enough. I hope he knows he's missed.
dream moon JO B
sorry on loss of dad ammada it lst on hear u ca can say we feal
Aug 22, 2018
Amanda Stout
Thank You Dream Moon JO B
I truly appreciate your comment...
Aug 22, 2018
dream moon JO B
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Aug 22, 2018
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Feb 26, 2019
Gilda
I'm still missing my dad, too, dream moon JO B. It's been four years since he died, and I still wish we could talk, and enjoy movies and music together as we did for many years. But the years went by too quickly. Even the happy memories still make me sad, because I am alone. I have a roommate, but it's not the same as living with someone who knew me and loved me since the day I was born, and vice versa. It's hard to meet people who are kind and genuine. My dad was the kindest and most genuine person I ever knew.
Feb 27, 2019
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Feb 27, 2019
Gilda
I just had another birthday without my dad. I had a fairly nice birthday with lots of people sending me their good wishes, mostly on Facebook, but I still miss my dad. It was so wonderful to have someone in my life who understood me, who would never leave me and who was the only person I could ever trust completely. I couldn't even trust my own mother because she abandoned me when I was only three years old.
May 2, 2019
dream moon JO B
happy bday giilda i no bdays dont feal way we usd to be wen lovd 1s wear stillhear
May 2, 2019
Gilda
Thank you, dream moon JO B. Yes, it's just not the same without our loved ones. Even if I were to meet someone I think is wonderful, there's no guarantee he or she would stay in my life, but the love of a good parent only dies when they do. Dogs are pretty faithful but they can't talk.
May 2, 2019
dream moon JO B
yes i get it i do
it leastt anmilss dont tell u how we shud feal o grieff thy do not
thy dont say get ovrit or foget abot yore dad r fogett u had a dad coz im not bean fair ther to fealins wish mask me feal bad for bean bad to ther fealinss i ct do wot thy wnt i can notwish can mak me f feal look bad not thm
why is it 1s notlossno 1 mak u feal bad for loss we had
May 2, 2019
Gilda
I know what you mean, dream moon JO B. People want us to be happy so they don't have to feel sad with us. It's all about their feelings, not ours. If they haven't lost anyone, then they don't know how it feels, and if they did lose someone close, then maybe they didn't love that person as much or feel as close or have as much fun as we did with our dads, so they will never know the pain of such a loss. But it's also kind of sad for them, that missed out on a wonderful relationship for whatever reason. They just add to our pain by making us feel guilty for being sad and making them uncomfortable. All I can say is their time to grieve will come soon enough, if they care about anybody in this world. Maybe it will be over an animal instead of a human being, and then they will know how it feels. Then someone will tell them to snap out of it.
May 3, 2019
dream moon JO B
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if i evr meet a man he will hav to be lk my dad in wayss i mean
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coz peppplee ther hav had a loss its lk a supportt groupp it is
wear we all get comft wen lovd 1s cum trhu we do
iv had famly iv not met cum trhu but foto stroyssi herd wz spott on my fav anits cum trhu
May 4, 2019
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May 5, 2019
Gilda
dream moon JO B, your messages touched my heart. I feel the same way about my dad. We also were soul mates. Once you've known such happiness with another person it's hard to live without it. We watched Kukla, Fran and Ollie on tv together when I was a girl. It was so much fun going to the movies together but that pretty much stopped after we got a vcr in 1982. Then we watched thousands of movies together on videos and dvd's. My dad's brothers shared his love for the old films and music, but they're gone, too. It was so much fun when we'd all get together to watch an old western or a musical. A family favorite was Buck Jones. I'd love to find a new movie companion. My current roommate is too grumpy to be much fun.
May 6, 2019
dream moon JO B
me dad luvd harrry pottr moviess we did we wear goin 2 watchh ;lastt 1 p1 thn we wear goin to get p2 of lastt 1 but nevr got rond to doin it i saw p2 of lst 1 in stowee
put cud not get round to byin in it i cud not
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bit me feals shud but ojhr bit of me fealss lk no
May 6, 2019
Gilda
I feel the same way about my dad's favorite movies. I can't watch them without missing him. There's a huge part of my life that I lost because I can't enjoy a lot of things anymore because he's not here with me. When I see videos of old films or songs on YouTube that I think he would have enjoyed, it just kills me. And it hurts even more when I see the video was uploaded while he was still alive. How did I ever miss it before! It makes me feel guilty that I didn't look hard enough before.
May 6, 2019
dream moon JO B
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May 6, 2019
Gilda
Yes, it would be so nice to have them back just the way they used to be. Today I had a good cry, because my roommate was mean to me and when I defended myself, then he blamed me for raising his blood sugar. My dad had diabetes, too, but I helped him get his sugars down to normal, and I helped cure gangrene on his toes from peripheral arterial disease, but this roommate of mine won't let me help him. I hate to see people destroying themselves and then try to take me down with them. My dad was such a saint compared to most people. If only he had watched his diet more carefully years ago, but he didn't want to listen. He had a sweet tooth and loved refined carbos and processed meats. And the trouble is I enjoyed these unhealthy foods right along with him, until he started to be ill, and then I felt so sorry that he couldn't enjoy tasty food anymore. When you have congestive heart failure even a bologna sandwich can send you to the hospital on account of too much salt. Life is so cruel sometimes, but I thank God that he enjoyed good health for most of his life. He was a boxer in the army during the Korean War, and he used to walk a lot up these steep hills. In fact, he was so fit, we didn't know he had advanced heart disease until he was in his 80's.
May 8, 2019
dream moon JO B
my dad cu trhu it spookss churchh he did tellin 1 of his dirtyy kokess he did
but mrdim cud not sayit coz he wud get ong
all i no gilda no 1 gets a losss till thy get it
May 12, 2019
Gilda
dream moon JO B, are you saying that your dad told one of his dirty jokes through the medium at the spiritualist church? That's amazing! I have five different friends who have gone to a spiritualist church to try to hear from their loved ones who have passed on. They are convinced that the dead live on in the afterlife. However, I am afraid to go to the spirit church because I heard that bad spirits can imitate our loved ones, too, and I don't want a bad spirit following me home. One Chinese friend told me that his brother went to an antique store and when he came home, his other brother who is psychic, asked him, "Where have you been, because you brought some spirits home with you." He had been looking at some old Chinese funeral shrines at the antique shop. I have heard so many stories from people I know who claim to have seen or heard spirits, that I think they must exist.
May 12, 2019
dream moon JO B
yep my dad did
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May 13, 2019
Mary Kay
Hello,
I am a newbie. I lost my father on May 22nd at 2.22am. He was 92 years old. Loosing him is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I really miss him. We were able to have a funeral for him but there were so many things we couldn't do because of the virus Covid 19. My mom, sister and myself were with him when he passed away which was great. But I just can't get it out of my mind. He had Alzhiemers and Congestive heart failure. It was so hard that last week of his life to see him suffer like he did. I have not been able to sleep ever since. Everyone really loved my dad. He was such a good person, very passive, respectful and non judgemental. He made sure us kids had everything we needed when growing up and then was there always for his 21 grand children. I have some wonderful memories of a full and grateful life my dad gave to me and my siblings. But I now have this void. I keep being told he is in a better place, and that is true but I want him here with me and then I feel selfish about that. I used to think that if I could go before him I wouldn't be in so much pain of loosing him. The fact that I am never going to see him again is so terribly difficult for me. I miss him so much. I love him so much. And have had some unusual things happen since his passing. No matter how you look at it, there is nothing worse then loosing a parent when it comes to death. You have known them the longest and they are or should be always there for you. Both my parents were absolutely wonderful in that area. I guess maybe it helps to write my thoughts down, good therapy maybe. But still I will always have this piece of my heart missing, a void in my life. I want to hold his hand and kiss his cheek and tell him I love him. But I can never do that again. I guess that is it for now. Sorry for this being so long. Stay safe and healthy everyone. Thank you for your patience. Hugs to all that have lost a parent, I understand your loss. Stay strong and talk to someone you love about what you are going through. That is the only thing that helps me. Thanks again. MaryKay
May 31, 2020
Gilda
My heart goes out to you and I hope you will find some comfort in expressing your feelings. Everyone here understands what you are going through. God bless you and give you strength to carry on and support your mother in this time of sorrow.
Even after five years I still miss my dad terribly but the intensity of grief does diminish over time. You never get over it, you just learn to live with it. I wish you the very best as you begin your journey through grief. Take care, and remember you were as much a blessing to your father as he was to you.
Jun 1, 2020
marie
I am so sorry Mary Kay. Our hearts were broken when we lost our dad. My sister-in-law had told us to prepare that tears and grief would come in waves...out of nowhere. One of my cousins had lost her dad before us and she spoke some wise words to us: (please forgive the bad word.) "Dear, dear Cousins,
It's gonna hurt like a sonofabitch for awhile. Then one day will come when you notice you haven't thought about it for an hour or so. And then the times between will get longer. And then something, you never know what, will grab at your heart and it will hurt just like it did at first. Those of us who have already lost their dads wish we could take some of the pain away. But as I told my boys when their daddy died - the saddest thing would be that if nobody cared, nobody cried. God is good and faithful and will get you through."
Another dear friend said there will come a day when we will be able to share memories of him without crying...I was clinging for that day.
Praying for you.
Jun 1, 2020
dream moon JO B
sorry on yore loss mary
Jun 1, 2020
marie
Oh Ash...what a precious dream!!!
Jun 30, 2020
dream moon JO B
grt dream ash
Jul 7, 2020
dream moon JO B
grt dream ash i luv dreams wen dad gets 2 me in dream
Jul 7, 2020
Alexandra Tomko
I lost my dad on June 17. He was my biggest supporter, and we were extremely close. I feel lost without him.
Aug 1, 2020
mandy wilinski
i lost my father on jan 25,1999. my whole world crashed . and i came to a complete stop everything stopped for me in my life . i was a daddys girl he was my everything. now i lost mom as well in march2020 to cancer. its not a good feeling .u think ur world stops for the first parent second one its even harder yet bc its ur last parent it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Oct 8, 2020
dream moon JO B
so sorry on yor loss alxandr & mandyy
i no it min its so tuff 2 get hlp u need coz of wold cov19 byt but hear u can blog get yor fealins on hw u feal
Oct 10, 2020
dream moon JO B
sorrrry on yore losss hterss no rightt or wongg way 2 greiff justt try not to let othrss tell u how u shud feal
im spirttid 2
Nov 4, 2020
Pennywyze
The relationship with my father was more than strained, for many years. I came from a dysfunctional family that is over 5 miles long. I hated my father for years. I don't want to get into the specifics as to why. Let's just say, "The stress of seeing my mom beaten on on a regular basis, caused me to have dark circles under my eyes before I reached puberty". Although I was never beat on by dad, I still had a resentment towards my father that branched further than anger.
However, I found out in 2007 (I think) that dad's heart was in pretty bad shape, and his doctor was talking about putting a stent in it. I didn't see my father for a couple years after I heard about his heart. The man was running away from something so, it was never a necessity for me to know his every move. At this point in my life, it was a great relief for dad to leave the city of Houston or the entire state of Texas.
February 7, will be 2 years since he passed, and due to my husband passing 2 months and 2 days after dad, the grief of dad is just now catching up with me.
RIP: Royce Allen (Al) Watson
You are dearly missed
Jan 16, 2021
Pennywyze
How is everyone, today? I've had better days, and I've had worse. Today was a very good day.
Jan 22, 2021
Pennywyze
Get ready, those who love country music and George Strait. He's sick enough that he's cancelled a show, his wife has been trying for a week to get his fever down. Not COVID-19. A rare disease that is directly related to pneumonia. I don't like saying this but, a couple of hours ago, I heard his song "Troubadour". Reminded me that dad liked "Amarillo By Morning" so, I put the song on YouTube on my phone. When the song was over I said, "Everybody needs to get all of his memorabilia they can because when he's gone the prices are going through the roof. He's not going to pass in the next 5 years, more like the next couple of months". I had no idea where it came from, and still don't. I asked Google if he's sick and the first 2 articles I read were about the very rare disease related to pneumonia.
Jan 23, 2021
Pennywyze
I hope everyone had a great day, today. I, on the other hand, had better than a great day. This is, in spite of my best friend of 30 years deciding to be judgemental and tell me how I'm supposed to be grieving. She's almost 15 years into her grief, and she knows it all.
Jan 23, 2021
Diana, Grief Recovery Coach
@pennywyze, don't you just love people who tell us how we are suppose to grieve and how we are suppose to feel. I also have a so called friend that tells me how I am suppose to feel about everything. I am trying gracefully to get her out of my life. I'm allowed my feelings and emotions - they are real. Everyone is grieving the way they grieve. You can't tell a person how to grieve, yet, people do. Enough out of me. Wishing everyone a good week to come.
Jan 24, 2021
dream moon JO B
yep so tru diana u soon lern by frinds or u thrtt thy wz frinds wen we loss a lovd
we do iv bean on hearr blogdd ovr yrs
on hear sinsee 2012
hit botll few tims hopin it wz anserr but i no itss nott not
all i no is i do it my speed on grieff i do no 1 eslsses say so
iv had sillllly comntds i hav u shud be happy yore dads dead why say stuff lk ths fw of my frindss hav had simlr comtss lk me
wen i loss my cat lucy evn got why u cryin ovr cat
coz i lovd her she wz my kid my fur kid dorter she wz
Jan 24, 2021
Pennywyze
Been missing my dad a lot lately. He might have been a jerk most of my childhood, but he began treating me like an adult when I became one. That caused me to respect him more, and I respected him as though he was God. Not because he made me, but because mom was a stickler for my showing dad respect. Including lying to him and talking bad to him.
Love you dad
Jan 26, 2021
Pennywyze
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I'm still trying to figure out how & when I can grieve the 5 people I lost, individually. I could've been able to grieve those members of my family at different times of their deaths were spread out over time. But the 5 people I lost were gone between February of 2019 and April 2020 so, there's my conundrum.
Jan 30, 2021
Carie
Hi I'm Carie. I lost my father last month and am having such a hard time with it I can't get over the fact my brother won't speak to me haven't heard from him since the service I understand he is grieving also I also understand people grieve differently but I just want to be there for him also
Apr 27, 2021
dream moon JO B
so sorry on loss of yor dad loss dad 9 yrs go loss mom 3 wsk go im juts so num on lozzi n mom lk i did wen dad 9 yrs go
Apr 27, 2021
Carie
Thank you Dream I am to the point where I have to take things second by second most of the time.
Apr 27, 2021
dream moon JO B
i no lozzin mom bean so num thn tv juts set me off a but i no on dad it took 2 yrs on mom i no it cud ta mor thn 2 yrs
Apr 27, 2021
Stella
Jul 5, 2021
dream moon JO B
so sorry on loss stella loss das 9 dad 9 yrs go loss mom 3 mth go im stil num on lozzin mom
evn got acusd of lyin avot her possin evn toldd pppl 2 go 2 funrell hom ask thm
i no iv had few wobls on moms los not sunkk in shes gom wz sam wen dad poss i wz so wz mom
its wot i cnt handl wen frinds stp speekin 2 me or cross syt to avod me is 1 of wost thngs u can do 2 a persn its loss sum 1
Jul 7, 2021
Gentle Soul
I miss my Dad every day, he passed away in 2004, I was at his side, no one can even come close to what a loving human being he was. My partner is a very loving guy and he is about as good as it gets so I am blessed (at last after many attempts at trusting the wrong people). My Dad was a great dancer too, he taught me how to dance the waltz, I stood on his feet and learned, I became a dance teacher. He drove me to track and field practice, dance class and that was after his work, he loved my Mom very much and my 2 brothers. We had a nice family until my big brother died suddenly in an accident, I was 17 and had no skills to cope, I tried to help my Mom & Dad but we never really got over that loss. Mom is gone now too, but what remains is their love, they live on in my heart..I try to be a good person and help others, I have made mistakes but forgave myself for not being perfect. Blessings to all.
Feb 20, 2022
marie
Feb 20, 2022
Nikki Noel Lucchese
Hi, I'm Nikki. I lost my father almost two years ago on 10/28/2022 to drug addiction. Many thoughts have been in my head since then, but the main being that I miss him so much and always saw passed his addiction. He never did drugs around me or my siblings but could tell that his body was declining due to it. The night he passed away, I was the one to find my father slowly falling to the ground and I recall being scared, shocked, worried, and sad. It's hard thinking about this moment as it was the last time, I saw my dad living. I was able to see to say goodbye one last time at the hospital, yet he was no longer living. Even though he didn't respond, I knew he could hear me still. During the last time I saw my father, my mother and older sibling was present. As I laid next to my father grieving, my older siblings said strong words of hatred to my dad that I don't remember or want to remember as I was so angry at them in that moment and continue to be angry with them until this day. Yet in the moment, I remember saying something like "don't say to him" and didn't acknowledge my sibling as I only had a few moments that I would ever see my father again, and it wasn't about them. Despite my dad's struggle with drugs, I was never angry with my dad even though the drugs caused him to decline and become uninvolved with the family. He always showed happiness around me, and sang, and gave me helpful advice on my bad days.
Not everyone is as accepting or understanding of drug addicts as I am, and unfortunately there are members in my family that had a strong hatred towards my dad due to it. Yet, I always stood up for my dad, no matter the choices he made. For the longest time I thought to go to my dad to ask if he could stop, but never did as I knew it became a dependency on his body. I haven't shared this story with anyone besides my family and partner and growing up only a few of closet friends knew about my dad's drug history as it's something very personal, so writing this brings out a bit of relief. I thank my dad for giving me life, and truly giving me life as he adopted me at the age of two and has been my father until my age of 21. I miss you so much Dad.
Mar 20, 2022
Dena Williams
Apr 18, 2022