yep ill be honst its helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll u cud say
my moms not well shes not gonaget betr shes not her alz gona get wors u cud say
I was just thinking about my dad and I teared up, its been 14 years but it still feels like yesterday, his memory will never die and he is strong with me, and it brings me comfort....I wish he could have been with me longer, but that was not for me to decide...I love you dad and your heart is my heart....I miss you
my dad was the most special sweet person I could ever imagine, I'm still grieving....talking to you helps me so much, they want me to be happy, both my parents, but man does it hurt to think about them sometimes....the memories never go away, but I wouldnt want them to....they were just such wonderful parents....its really hard....but they would be so proud of me....and I try and remember that when things get hard...I love you all :)
There is never a day that goes by that I don't think about my father, it has almost been 4 years and I still feel broken. It's hard to talk about the pain that I feel inside, because if you haven't experienced the loss of a parent YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. My father and I had a very complicated relationship, but above all else, I know that he loved me more than anything in this world. That is what I try to keep in the fore Front of my mind every December. He loved me, and that Is all that matters. My family still will not have anything to do with me, my brother and I are working on rebuilding our relationship but it is hard when so much has been said, hurtful things, that can be forgiven but never forgotten. I so desperately wish that one day he would take up for me to my family that has disowned me because I love a woman.... but the whole dynamic of this situation has changed because I am not married and I just cant handle anyone disrespecting my wife. Because of the poor treatment she has received from my family, it really makes it hard to talk about these things with her. I am very fortunate to have the most amazing in laws a girl could ever ask for, around this time of year they always make sure I am included, even my wife's 92 year old grandmother, they treat me more like family than what has ever been shown to me my whole entire life. In reality, I am so incredibly blessed to have such loving and supportive people in my life, but deep down, I feel so empty inside. I know I need to see a therapist before this gets worse.... I feel like a ticking time bomb ready to explode at any moment. Making music use to be a great way for me to express myself, but ever since my father passed, I cant seem to pick up the guitar anymore. I know that's what my dad would want me to do but I have lost the passion and the desire to play. This holiday season I want to try and focus more on the positive rather than the negative, but it always proves to be easier said than done. I like coming here when I can, you all have been so supportive and encouraging. This is my safe place.
still cry for my dad i do evn speeek 2 his fotto sayin wish he wz still hear i no he wud of bean herbrokn ovr lucy cat of 16 yrs had 2 be put 2 sleeep he wud of bean
Today is the second anniversary of the passing of my beloved father. He was my best friend and the hero of my life. I am grateful for the time we had together, but remembering the happy times with him still makes me sad, because I probably will never meet anyone as special as he was, and even if I did, I doubt that anyone could love me or understand me as well as he did. There just isn't enough time left to develop that close a relationship with another human being. I will miss him for the rest of my life.
so sorry gilda thes anversy seam 2 get hrder hardr not esy thy dnt i agrea try rebr rht the grt tims we had evn embrasin tims we had funny thg is emrasin tims we had maks me smil a bit evn tho i miss him so mush i no my dad my cat lucy r up in sky 2 gethr thy r my dad wz only 1 it gott me u cud say
It's been 4 months since I turned 39 and list my daddy the same day also it feels like forever I miss hi so much I always made sure he was done right n this to e I couldn't save my daddy breaks y heart
mrch seams so hrd for me i no coz my dad died 3.3 .1212 he did his sush a big miss hewz 1 it kpt evry thgn ok he did i wish 2012 nvr haodn dnt no if sons mad or nt fr me wz1 yr wish ic ud of stayd in 20122 2011 i cud of
Lost my dad 1-2-17 from dementia and malignant tumor. Grieving never started till weeks later when my world crashed. Everyday, memories of woulda, coulda and shoulda haunt me. Too many what if's. Never want to wake up. Caring for him after hospital meds destroyed his mind. Modern science and doctors are pathetic and I voiced my anger to the medical staff who were unable to give me a logical response!!! A living hell for my dad and I. I would endure his agony again and again.
Michael, I'm so sorry for what you had to go through with your dad at the hospital. I also feel like the medications killed my dad and that the hospital stopped caring, because he was old (86). I found some comfort at the following site:
At least, it helps to know that we are not alone. Many others are also haunted with the same painful feelings and memories at the hospital. Wishing you and everyone here comfort and healing from the heartache of losing our beloved dads.
Today is my late father's birthday. He would have been 89 years old. He died Dec. 27, 2014. I miss him every day and I still cry for him. I often think of how happy we used to be enjoying movies and music together. He was the kindest man I ever met. Life isn't as fun or meaningful without him. The years went by so fast. It almost seems like a dream. Now all I have are memories. I sometimes dream about my dad. I wish I could be with him again and not have to lead this lonely existence. He was my best friend and my hero. So many things I wish he could see and enjoy. He deserved every happiness but life is so unfair. And yet, he was content with his lot in life. He rarely complained. I wish I could be as accepting of the vissicitudes of life as he was. God bless my beloved daddy forever!
Thank you, Ann and JO B. I always thought my life would be sad without my dad, and I was right, but I never expected it to be this bad. I got a roommate, because I don't like to live alone, and that helps, but he's a difficult person, whereas my dad was as sweet as the day is long.
THES SONGS R MY DAD HE WUD LUVD THS IRSH FORK MUS HE WUD OF i brt thm lst yen i wt 2 dubln i fel in liv in thes i no my dad luvd stuf lk ths 2 bt i no coz im hos odrter it livd him so mush still duz
This is the third anniversary of my dad's death. I think about him every day. I miss him so much, because he was the nicest man I ever met. Life will never be as happy without him, unless someone just as wonderful comes into my life, but I doubt it, because he was a man of his time, and times have changed.
How is everyone doing? It's been three years since my dad died. I still miss him every day. I still dream about him and wish I could turn back time. There isn't much left that I haven't said about him on this and other forums, but I still have the need to talk about him, to confirm that he existed and that he meant more to me than anyone I ever knew and loved. It's terrible the way death has ruined my life, by taking away my favorite people. I was his only child, and he never remarried, so even though many people liked him, nobody else misses him as much as I do. However, he had one friend from work who was younger than him, and even tbough they didn't see each other that often after my dad retired, he always called him on his birthday. Now he calls me on my dad's birthday which is very sweet of him. And yet, he doesn't seem like the type of person who would do that. I think my dad must have made a big impact on his life, since he got to see him every day at work. My own relatives don't call me on my dad's birthday, even though they claimed they loved him.
Well, I wish everyone the best as we struggle along the sad, lonely road of grief.
hello, thank you all for being here. my Father passed away in November this past year. I haven't stopped crying or hoping he will call and tell me this has all been a mistake. His death was very sudden and very unexpected. Several years ago my children lost their Dad to cancer. That was very hard on our family, but we coped somehow. This has been so sudden I'm not sure how to process or deal? I'm just sad and in shock. I don't know what else to say except I feel like a part of me died that day also. I don't know how to get through this.............thanks for reading/listening/whatever..........i'm trying to make an effort. Because I know I can't just let this depression ruin my life. My dad would not want that for me. I don't want that for myself.
Dear Jennifer, I am so sorry for your loss. I wish you peace and comfort. Losing a beloved parent is one of the hardest things in life, especially after losing your children's dad. A friend of mine who also lost her father was reading the New York Times where they had a story about grief. There is no "magic" cure for grief. Two authors of books on grief basically said there is no right way or wrong way to grieve and there is no timeline for grief either. They recommended doing what works to make you feel better and stop those things that don't. It is important to allow yourself to tell your story over and over until you can accept your loss. Many relatives, friends and acquaintances aren't comfortable talking about sadness, which is why it is often necessary to seek help from online grief forums, grief counsellors and grief support groups. Most people who aren't currently in grief or who are in denial will tell you to get over it. Not everyone is as sensitive or bonded to their father the way we were. The more people tell you to get over it, the harder you will hang onto it. You really need to get your feelings and memories about this devastating experience out, over and over, until you come to terms with your grief.
You will never be completely over it, but you will learn how to live with your grief. You will be happy again, over time, but not in the same way. Death is a natural part of life, so whoever designed our brains has included everything we need to cope with death (even our own). We just need to believe that we will get through our grief and that we will be stronger and wiser as a result of our suffering.
Unfortunately, grief is the price of love. The more we loved someone and interacted with them the harder it is to let them go, but this is something practically every human being has to deal with at some point. The only alternative is not to love anyone at all, but as Leonardo da Vinci once said, "A life without love is no life at all."
Happy St. Patrick's Day, everyone! I remember how my dad and I used to have corned beef and cabbage every year without fail. During Lent he would bring home hot cross buns. On Easter he would buy big cookies shaped like rabbits, ducks and chicks, and a big Easter lily that smelled so sweet. I miss him so much. He was the nicest man I ever knew.
my dad would hug me like i was the most special person in the world. when he died i lost a dad, a friend,and a mentor. my whole world looked different. it all seemed darker and more confusing. i know he would want me to find peace and joy life. he died 2 years ago and sometimes i still wait for his call. my dad was larger than life. but i guess he wasnt larger than death.
Just lost my Dad the day before Father's Day. June 16, 2018. I miss him every day and I love him still. He used to take me fishing as a kid no matter how hot it was and how miserable he was watching me fish, he would go. I miss talking to him on the phone and just hearing his voice. I can't go a day without feeling some sort of despair, but I have to go on. I gained so much weight and sank into a deeper depression. He wouldn't want to see me like this. I don't want to see me like this. I will see him again. He is waiting for me in Heaven, and I'm sure he will greet me when I get there.
Hello to you all in this group... My name is Amanda and like each of you I lost my Dad too, April 19, 2005... My dad was/is My Best Friend, My Strength, My World and My Hero... I was 25 when God called him home, Daddy was 59... For 20 years he faught a battle with Type 2 Diabetes, he was diagnosed at the age of 39... I can remember being 5 years old and the nurse teaching me how to give him a shot, having me practice on an orange... Its been 13 years since he passed and I struggle to this day, my mother has told others I've lost peace, I'm not the same... Maybe she is right, I carry tons of guilt because it was me who had to sign papers saying just let him be comfortable, don't resuscitate, nobody else, not my mom (they were still legally married), my papaw (dads dad) or my aunt (dads sister) even though they were all there, they only said "do what you think is right"... I try to accept things but some days I have set backs... So, I found his group maybe not by accident (because I honestly found this whole site that way) maybe I was meant to find this group, a place where each of us have something in common/bond but complete strangers... My Heart Breaks for each of you, I know your pain and your struggle... I have been told as long as we keep our Loved Ones memories alive they are alive, I believe each of our Dads stories should be told... My Hearts are with You All...
emma
Oct 27, 2016
dream moon JO B
no
im so mest up coz of my dad koss loss multi loss on topp i am
Oct 27, 2016
emma
Oct 27, 2016
dream moon JO B
yep ill be honst its helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll u cud say
my moms not well shes not gonaget betr shes not her alz gona get wors u cud say
Oct 27, 2016
Rachel Lynn Schuler
I was just thinking about my dad and I teared up, its been 14 years but it still feels like yesterday, his memory will never die and he is strong with me, and it brings me comfort....I wish he could have been with me longer, but that was not for me to decide...I love you dad and your heart is my heart....I miss you
Nov 9, 2016
Rachel Lynn Schuler
my dad was the most special sweet person I could ever imagine, I'm still grieving....talking to you helps me so much, they want me to be happy, both my parents, but man does it hurt to think about them sometimes....the memories never go away, but I wouldnt want them to....they were just such wonderful parents....its really hard....but they would be so proud of me....and I try and remember that when things get hard...I love you all :)
Nov 9, 2016
Stehanie Loughmiller
There is never a day that goes by that I don't think about my father, it has almost been 4 years and I still feel broken. It's hard to talk about the pain that I feel inside, because if you haven't experienced the loss of a parent YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. My father and I had a very complicated relationship, but above all else, I know that he loved me more than anything in this world. That is what I try to keep in the fore Front of my mind every December. He loved me, and that Is all that matters. My family still will not have anything to do with me, my brother and I are working on rebuilding our relationship but it is hard when so much has been said, hurtful things, that can be forgiven but never forgotten. I so desperately wish that one day he would take up for me to my family that has disowned me because I love a woman.... but the whole dynamic of this situation has changed because I am not married and I just cant handle anyone disrespecting my wife. Because of the poor treatment she has received from my family, it really makes it hard to talk about these things with her. I am very fortunate to have the most amazing in laws a girl could ever ask for, around this time of year they always make sure I am included, even my wife's 92 year old grandmother, they treat me more like family than what has ever been shown to me my whole entire life. In reality, I am so incredibly blessed to have such loving and supportive people in my life, but deep down, I feel so empty inside. I know I need to see a therapist before this gets worse.... I feel like a ticking time bomb ready to explode at any moment. Making music use to be a great way for me to express myself, but ever since my father passed, I cant seem to pick up the guitar anymore. I know that's what my dad would want me to do but I have lost the passion and the desire to play. This holiday season I want to try and focus more on the positive rather than the negative, but it always proves to be easier said than done. I like coming here when I can, you all have been so supportive and encouraging. This is my safe place.
Dec 2, 2016
dream moon JO B
lossl my dad in 2012 i did lst wk my cat of 16 yrs had 2 be put 2 sleep
Dec 2, 2016
dream moon JO B
still cry for my dad i do evn speeek 2 his fotto sayin wish he wz still hear i no he wud of bean herbrokn ovr lucy cat of 16 yrs had 2 be put 2 sleeep he wud of bean
wish hed bean hear 2 meat thes 2 new kitns i do
Dec 2, 2016
dream moon JO B
happy bday dad wish u wera still hear
Dec 26, 2016
Gilda
Today is the second anniversary of the passing of my beloved father. He was my best friend and the hero of my life. I am grateful for the time we had together, but remembering the happy times with him still makes me sad, because I probably will never meet anyone as special as he was, and even if I did, I doubt that anyone could love me or understand me as well as he did. There just isn't enough time left to develop that close a relationship with another human being. I will miss him for the rest of my life.
Dec 27, 2016
dream moon JO B
so sorry gilda thes anversy seam 2 get hrder hardr not esy thy dnt i agrea try rebr rht the grt tims we had evn embrasin tims we had funny thg is emrasin tims we had maks me smil a bit evn tho i miss him so mush i no my dad my cat lucy r up in sky 2 gethr thy r my dad wz only 1 it gott me u cud say
Jan 3, 2017
dream moon JO B
http://vimeo.com/39734211
Jan 7, 2017
dream moon JO B
dad miss u so mush u lcuy lucy i do ivlos so msuh in 1 go nw u 2 my moms bra 2 dem/al im lozon 2 i cnte vn st ths 1 i cnt
Feb 21, 2017
Davida m johnsoon
It's been 4 months since I turned 39 and list my daddy the same day also it feels like forever I miss hi so much I always made sure he was done right n this to e I couldn't save my daddy breaks y heart
Mar 8, 2017
dream moon JO B
so sorry davia i am loss my dad wn i wz 37 im 42 nw i need him so msuh 2 be hear i do coz he w rok sol of famly u cud say
Mar 15, 2017
dream moon JO B
mrch seams so hrd for me i no coz my dad died 3.3 .1212 he did his sush a big miss hewz 1 it kpt evry thgn ok he did i wish 2012 nvr haodn dnt no if sons mad or nt fr me wz1 yr wish ic ud of stayd in 20122 2011 i cud of
Mar 28, 2017
Michael
Lost my dad 1-2-17 from dementia and malignant tumor. Grieving never started till weeks later when my world crashed. Everyday, memories of woulda, coulda and shoulda haunt me. Too many what if's. Never want to wake up. Caring for him after hospital meds destroyed his mind. Modern science and doctors are pathetic and I voiced my anger to the medical staff who were unable to give me a logical response!!! A living hell for my dad and I. I would endure his agony again and again.
Apr 15, 2017
Gilda
Michael, I'm so sorry for what you had to go through with your dad at the hospital. I also feel like the medications killed my dad and that the hospital stopped caring, because he was old (86). I found some comfort at the following site:
http://whatsyourgrief.com/guilt-and-grief-2/
At least, it helps to know that we are not alone. Many others are also haunted with the same painful feelings and memories at the hospital. Wishing you and everyone here comfort and healing from the heartache of losing our beloved dads.
Apr 22, 2017
dream moon JO B
soon be fahrs day im dredin it agan
Jun 14, 2017
Gilda
Today is my late father's birthday. He would have been 89 years old. He died Dec. 27, 2014. I miss him every day and I still cry for him. I often think of how happy we used to be enjoying movies and music together. He was the kindest man I ever met. Life isn't as fun or meaningful without him. The years went by so fast. It almost seems like a dream. Now all I have are memories. I sometimes dream about my dad. I wish I could be with him again and not have to lead this lonely existence. He was my best friend and my hero. So many things I wish he could see and enjoy. He deserved every happiness but life is so unfair. And yet, he was content with his lot in life. He rarely complained. I wish I could be as accepting of the vissicitudes of life as he was. God bless my beloved daddy forever!
Jun 28, 2017
dream moon JO B
so sorry gilda
wish my dad wz still hear it min i need him so bad i do
Jul 15, 2017
Gilda
Thank you, Ann and JO B. I always thought my life would be sad without my dad, and I was right, but I never expected it to be this bad. I got a roommate, because I don't like to live alone, and that helps, but he's a difficult person, whereas my dad was as sweet as the day is long.
Jul 25, 2017
dream moon JO B
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my dad wz my lif he wz he wz my hero he wz
I%20Watch%20the%20Sunrise2.mp3
my dad wz my sunrise still us he is
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dad luvd ths song he did
sorry if im ustin any 1 i am
Aug 3, 2017
dream moon JO B
he did bt i put wong song sryBelinda%20Carlisle%20%20Circle%20In%20The%20Sand.mp3
hoply iv put ths song my dad luvd hr dif did
Aug 3, 2017
dream moon JO B
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my dad luvd ths 1 2 hop im not carzin ofense ot stres 2 pele coz if i ma im sorry it min mi sayn sorry a ot i am
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ths 1 remd of my dad 2 i miss him so mush i no its bean 5 yrs bt i stil mis him i do
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dnt why ple say it gets easy i dnt sea it
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a song we all luvd
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he lk ths sogn 2 he did
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wish my dads ud hear thes sng songs
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Aug 3, 2017
dream moon JO B
hop ths tras iv put on is ok sorry evry 1 if its k not jut my dad lket thm hie he did
Aug 3, 2017
Gilda
JO B, thank you for sharing the songs. Your dad had great taste in music. My dad did too.
Aug 5, 2017
dream moon JO B
thnx plsd u lk thm
Matt%20Monro%20-%20Walk%20Away%20-%20Live%201975.mp3
ths 1 wz plad it my dads funrel it wz
Aug 6, 2017
dream moon JO B
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my dad wud o fl uvd ths 1 he wud of
Aug 6, 2017
dream moon JO B
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dad wu of luvd ths 1 hewu d of he wud if
Aug 6, 2017
dream moon JO B
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thes r for u dad
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do a fr mor few dad on hea rhop uc an heR THM IN HEVEN I DO
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Aug 6, 2017
dream moon JO B
THES SONGS R MY DAD HE WUD LUVD THS IRSH FORK MUS HE WUD OF i brt thm lst yen i wt 2 dubln i fel in liv in thes i no my dad luvd stuf lk ths 2 bt i no coz im hos odrter it livd him so mush still duz
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Aug 6, 2017
Gilda
Dec 27, 2017
dream moon JO B
yep no fealin i do gilda i do
Dec 28, 2017
Gilda
Dec 28, 2017
dream moon JO B
ye me 2
Dec 28, 2017
Gilda
Well, I wish everyone the best as we struggle along the sad, lonely road of grief.
Jan 16, 2018
dream moon JO B
missin dad lk crazzzy i am
grt wen i sea him in dreams
Jan 16, 2018
Gilda
Jan 16, 2018
Jennifer
hello, thank you all for being here. my Father passed away in November this past year. I haven't stopped crying or hoping he will call and tell me this has all been a mistake. His death was very sudden and very unexpected. Several years ago my children lost their Dad to cancer. That was very hard on our family, but we coped somehow. This has been so sudden I'm not sure how to process or deal? I'm just sad and in shock. I don't know what else to say except I feel like a part of me died that day also. I don't know how to get through this.............thanks for reading/listening/whatever..........i'm trying to make an effort. Because I know I can't just let this depression ruin my life. My dad would not want that for me. I don't want that for myself.
Jan 18, 2018
Gilda
You will never be completely over it, but you will learn how to live with your grief. You will be happy again, over time, but not in the same way. Death is a natural part of life, so whoever designed our brains has included everything we need to cope with death (even our own). We just need to believe that we will get through our grief and that we will be stronger and wiser as a result of our suffering.
Unfortunately, grief is the price of love. The more we loved someone and interacted with them the harder it is to let them go, but this is something practically every human being has to deal with at some point. The only alternative is not to love anyone at all, but as Leonardo da Vinci once said, "A life without love is no life at all."
Jan 18, 2018
dream moon JO B
its bean nealy 6 yrs for me
it still can be bad lk mad
sum days it can still me coz dad is no longr hear i miss him
sorry for yore loss jenfer i am
Jan 18, 2018
Jennifer
Thank you Gilda and JO B.
I really appreciate your kindness and support. I know without any doubt that my Dad is with me just has he always has been.
much love ~
Jan 19, 2018
Gilda
Mar 6, 2018
dream moon JO B
me 2 missin dad gilda i am
Mar 13, 2018
Gilda
Mar 17, 2018
zevi
my dad would hug me like i was the most special person in the world. when he died i lost a dad, a friend,and a mentor. my whole world looked different. it all seemed darker and more confusing. i know he would want me to find peace and joy life. he died 2 years ago and sometimes i still wait for his call. my dad was larger than life. but i guess he wasnt larger than death.
Aug 3, 2018
Adam Fisher
Just lost my Dad the day before Father's Day. June 16, 2018. I miss him every day and I love him still. He used to take me fishing as a kid no matter how hot it was and how miserable he was watching me fish, he would go. I miss talking to him on the phone and just hearing his voice. I can't go a day without feeling some sort of despair, but I have to go on. I gained so much weight and sank into a deeper depression. He wouldn't want to see me like this. I don't want to see me like this. I will see him again. He is waiting for me in Heaven, and I'm sure he will greet me when I get there.
Aug 7, 2018
Amanda Stout
Hello to you all in this group... My name is Amanda and like each of you I lost my Dad too, April 19, 2005... My dad was/is My Best Friend, My Strength, My World and My Hero... I was 25 when God called him home, Daddy was 59... For 20 years he faught a battle with Type 2 Diabetes, he was diagnosed at the age of 39... I can remember being 5 years old and the nurse teaching me how to give him a shot, having me practice on an orange... Its been 13 years since he passed and I struggle to this day, my mother has told others I've lost peace, I'm not the same... Maybe she is right, I carry tons of guilt because it was me who had to sign papers saying just let him be comfortable, don't resuscitate, nobody else, not my mom (they were still legally married), my papaw (dads dad) or my aunt (dads sister) even though they were all there, they only said "do what you think is right"... I try to accept things but some days I have set backs... So, I found his group maybe not by accident (because I honestly found this whole site that way) maybe I was meant to find this group, a place where each of us have something in common/bond but complete strangers... My Heart Breaks for each of you, I know your pain and your struggle... I have been told as long as we keep our Loved Ones memories alive they are alive, I believe each of our Dads stories should be told... My Hearts are with You All...
Aug 21, 2018