Just wondering how you're doing Meghan. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Meghan,

No matter what any of us say, no matter what anyone says, you ARE going to hurt and in some ways that's ok. It means you really loved your dad. It sounds like he loved you just as much since he relied on you to help him, esp. thru those last months. It sounds like you were very close. He would want you to go to school and do the very best you can so you can graduate. You need to make him proud! It won't be easy. Many days it's all you can do to get out of bed, much less go to school....but, if he were alive,I'm betting he would urge you to go to school. Do you have plans for after graduation? College? A job?

Hi Meghan, I am so sorry for the loss of your Dad. My wife passed away February 9, 2013. Two years in a few days. She was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2007. Had surgery and chemo, radiation therapy. We had hopes it was all behind us. But in January 2010 it showed up again. This time in her spine. The next 3 years were a almost constant array of chemo,( she had 8 different kinds) surgeries and more radiation. They would try one chemo for several months. When it stopped working, they would put her on the next one. Each one we had such hope that it would halt the cancers spread. However with each new scan, it had spread to some where else. Some women can live many years, even though they are stage iv. However hers, like your Dads was aggressive.  It's unimaginable to me that at your young age losing your Dad.  I too struggle with the " WHY" question. I have heard it said, That the why question. Will go unanswered on earth and unasked in heaven. That we will know the answer immediately when we get there. I will pray that God will comfort you. Fill you with the certainty that your Dad is watching you from heaven. Pleased that you are his daughter