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I'm missing my dad so much that I don't know if I can take the sadness. I know with time it will get better because I was incapicated with grief when my mom died, but this has much more guilt associated with it.
My dad's last few years of life were spent in pain, being intimidated by horrible people taking advantage of him, and not being able to pay his bills. I didn't know it was going on and I wasn't there to stop it. What kind of daughter doesn't check in on her dad when he's old? I stopped being mad at him a long time ago, but I was too stubborn to contact him again. My dad's house has been ransacked for years. Personal things handed down from his parents and grandparents are gone for good. He's gone as if his life didn't matter. To the people that took advantage of him he was just a stupid old man. He worked hard all his life and deserved to live comfortably in his old age. That didn't happen. I can't ever forgive myself for letting this happen.
His life did matter. I always loved him, but I buried it for so long. I missed him and never knew it until now. Now I can't tell him. I didn't even get to say good-bye. I can barely even function. I can't eat or sleep. I have had Lyme's Disease for the past year and a half and I'm now making it worse again, but I feel I deserve it.
Thanks for listening. If it wasn't for my sweet son, my fiance, my sister and brother, I would hate to think of what I might do to myself.
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