Thank you for placing the link to your film. Admittedly it brought me to tears. And you are right. It is regret for all the things I should have said or might have said or all the things I still wanted time to be able to say. Just to keep the connection going. Instead all I feel is loss. And I suffer still to this day..... soon to be 9 years later.
I want to leave this earth and don't have the courage (as of yet) to take the plunge. Surely not something you want to hear having a father who took his own life. But I am suffering greatly and living without the man who made my heart beat I have coped with the pain the best I can.
I used to be on this website day in and out pretty much. It was a lifeline for me. Talked with many people who suffered the same as me losing a spouse. I could bet that those of us who were here then for quite awhile still would be thrilled to leave earth. Sometimes the pain is just so much to bear. Now I stay to myself and try not to have to burden others with my inability to manage very well.
I function better but I am not "living". Those are two separate and distinct things. But I do wish there was just more "time" that I would have had because I was so in tune with his world. More time.......and now I wait as I have to believe that the cord between us is still there, just invisible.......
No comments yet!
Welcome to Online Grief Support - A Social Community
If you have lost a loved one to alcohol, substance abuse or suicide please share your story or feelings here. Share the love and beauty of the one you lost. Losing someone any of these ways is not natural and can be hard to understand and ask why? I lost my Mother to an overdose 9 years ago. She also suffered from major depression. Her doctor got her hooked on pain medication and she was addicted most of my life. These doctors who were suppose to help her ended up killing her in the end. I also…See More
Diana Young, LD/N, GC-C, ORDMDiana is a Certified Grief Counselor with The American Institute of Health Care Professionals, Inc since 2015. She is also a licensed Dietitian/Nutritionist for 30 years specializing in weight management, diabetes care, the mind diet and healthy eating. Diana created the popular website OnlineGriefSupport.com in 2008 with over 15,000 members. Currently She facilitates a virtual grief support group weekly. Previously Diana worked for Cornerstone Hospice, providing…See More
Curtis Clark's Comments
Comment Wall (1 comment)
You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!
Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Thank you for placing the link to your film. Admittedly it brought me to tears. And you are right. It is regret for all the things I should have said or might have said or all the things I still wanted time to be able to say. Just to keep the connection going. Instead all I feel is loss. And I suffer still to this day..... soon to be 9 years later.
I want to leave this earth and don't have the courage (as of yet) to take the plunge. Surely not something you want to hear having a father who took his own life. But I am suffering greatly and living without the man who made my heart beat I have coped with the pain the best I can.
I used to be on this website day in and out pretty much. It was a lifeline for me. Talked with many people who suffered the same as me losing a spouse. I could bet that those of us who were here then for quite awhile still would be thrilled to leave earth. Sometimes the pain is just so much to bear. Now I stay to myself and try not to have to burden others with my inability to manage very well.
I function better but I am not "living". Those are two separate and distinct things. But I do wish there was just more "time" that I would have had because I was so in tune with his world. More time.......and now I wait as I have to believe that the cord between us is still there, just invisible.......
Welcome to
Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Sign Up
or Sign In
Or sign in with:
Groups
Loss of a loved one to a…
3 members
Grief Counseling
141 members
Sibling Loss
10 members
Losing My Sister
5 members
Losing a Sister
94 members
Funeral Service
2 members
Being the Other Woman/Ot…
44 members
I miss my Mom!
751 members
LESBIAN ..GAY 2 SPIRITE…
15 members
Loss of a child In memor…
29 members
Too Young To Die
17 members
Multiple Losses Group
324 members
Zoom Grief Support
39 members
Orphaned Adults
80 members
Sole Survivors
15 members
Latest Activity
Loss of a loved one to alcohol, substance abuse or suicide
Grief Counseling