I miss my grandma so much. My grandma was more of a mom to me and made me the woman I am today. She passed last April but within the past few weeks I've been having extreme panic attacks and I am having a hard time understanding why she is gone. She has been there for me my whole entire life and now she's gone and I just don't understand. I don't know to be okay with any of this, I don't want her to be gone. I want my gram back, she's always been there for me no matter what and I'm terrified without her.

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Megan, I can feel the pain you're going through when I read your words. Unfortunately there aren't any words that can ease that pain. The only thing that helps is time. I'm sorry I know that probably doesn't help you very much, but I've found that the passing of time is the only real way of easing the pain of losing someone. When I was younger I had gone to prison for nearly 20 years for drug offenses. Six months before I was to be released I was finally told that my Mom had Alzheimer's. As soon as I got out, I drove the eleven hours to go see her and when I walked in the front door she no longer knew who I was. I was utterly devastated and because of my closeness with her, I felt that the world would never be the same without her in it. Now six years after she had passed away, the tears have stopped and I'm able to think of her without feeling that God awful pain I felt when she passed away. My memories of her stay fresh in my mind and there have been times when I have even laughed at some of the funny times we shared. I wish there was something more that I could say that would ease the pain you're going through, but please know that I will include you in my prayers. Peace

Thank you so much for sharing, I almost didn't give this site a try because I didn't think anyone would care enough to say anything to me. I am sorry for your loss, this whole thing is so new and such a mess to me, it's just hard to see a light at the end of a tunnel.

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