My mom died on Nov 20-2015. I was so much happy with my life, I had everything I ever wanted, she treated me like a princess. she was and will always be my best friend.We had a perfect relationship, we pretty much enjoyed each others company. I never had spent a day without her and now it has been so many days without seeing her or without talking to her. I always prayed to god that my mom lives forever, forever? God only gave me 20 years with her.. She was only 42. Her birthday was in October. I died at the moment I saw her dead.I wasn't even with her when she took her last breath. She was my life, my family truly loves me and are very supportive but it's not same without my mom. I don't fear death anymore, as it's the only thing that will unite me with my beautiful mom. I received many sings and I always feel her presence and that's comforting but it all still feels like a bad dream. Many times I have to force myself to believe her death but I'm still somewhere neglecting the fact that she is no more.