I miss my David

My fiancee David died on August 12th 2010 of chirrosis of the liver. We were engaged to be married this fall. When I met him 4 years ago I had no idea he was an alcoholic but as the years passed he showed his true colors. When he was drunk he was very verbally abusive to me but I still loved him. I tried to help him and getting him in and out of detox but I think he must have thought he was indestructible. Right now i am living his his house but I don't know for how long. We have a dog named Mollie and it will kill me if need to move and can't take her with me. Besides Dave, she is my life and can't imagine not having her around everyday.

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Permalink Reply by Dianne McLafferty on September 10, 2010 at 8:54am
Yes I know what you are going through. I lost my husband December 24, 2009. He was diagnosed Angina and was given a year if he didn't see a doctor. I woke up Christmas eve and went wake him up and he was dead. I felt guilty because I didn't call 911 and send him to a hear doctor. I cannot get over that horrible day seeing him dead. I seem to take a step forward but I take 2 steps backwards. I feel so empty I miss him so much. Sometimes It is hard to get up in the morning. We had a mobile home, I can to get rid of that and move in with my dad. I also Lost my mother on July 9th of 2009 so I have two death to get over and it is not easy had all, so it is going to take twice as long to heal. I still cry a lot and get very depressed and I want to see the heck with everything. They say time heals everything. When?

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