My mom died at the age of 57 on Dec 15th 2012 from Pulmonary Fibrosis.  I knew she was sick and thought I had a good handle on things. It was still the shock of my life when I got a phone call from my step-dad.  All he would say was "Mom's down, get over here." She was just driving the car around the neighborhood so they could look at the houses that were decorated for Christmas. When they pulled into the garage she just looked at him and went to the ground. The paramedics got her heart started and took her to the hospital. She never regained consciousness. After 6 days on a respirator in ICU, we had to make the decision that no one should ever have to make. How did this just all happen so quickly?? She had just left me a voice mail complaining about something that my step-dad had done. We had just had dinner (that she cooked) and decorated the Christmas tree 2 nights before. I still can't believe that she's gone. She was my best friend and I miss her so much that I can't stand it. It hurts as much now as it did 2 months ago.  Almost more, the first month I was on auto-pilot, doing what had to be done and trying to be strong for everyone else.  Now I just feel miserable and completely lost.

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My Mom passed on 29 November 2012 from her third recurrence of breast cancer, I still feel like I am on autopilot some days, my Dad and I were with her every day, I was there 4-5 hours through hospital stays and home since September.  Sometimes it feels so unreal, and others...well...like someone ripped my heart and world apart.

I understand the lost and miserable feeling, wish I could say that it will get better soon, who know when we are going to start feeling..just feeling again.

Just know that this is a wonderful site with people who are going through and have been right where you are.  I know it has been a comfort for me.

Message me if you want to talk.

Anne

Thank you Anne. 

It's been 25 days here. I feel the world is a completely different place without her. I know she would want me to be happy but life looks emptier and darker now. One day you have that woman with you who gave you life and loves you unconditionally and the next day she's gone... Don't need anyone to tell me that we are all going to die, but it still seems so unfair. Misti and Anne, I send you a hug.

Melisa,

   It's even 3 weeks since I lost my mom, the feeling express a huge loss in a daughter's life is unbelievable , mom's and daughter are special long before birth, we tickled them and battered them inside their womb, just for the heck of it right.  As we layed I their tummy they would giggle  as we pushed up into their rib cage where mom didn't really have any more room for us.  They carried us with all the love they had for a unborn baby, the loved us from the very start, so the best thing we can do for our mom's that are still watching everything we do is to honor that memory.  Grieving  is a hard thing to do, but so was giving us birth. The memories we will always carry in our hearts a and through the life of our children and grandchildren.  My daughter is about to give the miracle of life.  She has chosen to name her daughter after my mom. what a wonderful tribute to my mom her grandma and great grandma .  Your mom's is celebrating her gift of life in heaven right now.  Honor that gift of life that God has given her.  Prayers for the both of us.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom at the beginning of December 2012 to pancreatic cancer. Like you, I felt like I was prepared for it until it happened. I understand the feeling of being on autopilot; I feel like that most days. I try to take it one day at a time and cry when I need to. It is a tremendous loss, and I feel your pain.

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