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I have not been online for a while. I am sorry to welcome new members and please know we here online truly understand each other.
I am keeping myself busy. Going back to college and working on my Masters, caring for my 3 year old and staying real close to those few family members who still care. However, at the end of a really dark cold night as I am walking to the college parking lot, feeling overwhelmed with stress, a cold, and a huge headache, I just wished, wished, wished, I can actually have myself believe this: "Amanda its okay, go on and pull yourself up, drive home with happiness, excitement, that Danny will be at home waiting for you along with Sebastian". My reality is NOTHING like that...
What I am trying to say is that no matter how busy I am getting and my mind occupied at the end of my day I continue to feel empty and still continue to think about my beloved husband every minute of my day. For the past 19 months, I daily have continued to tell myself: "Life was NOT suppose to be this way". Why? Why would someone so evil exist and give him the right to kill, take someone else's life away, for no reason whatsoever, destroy lives, breakup families, leave a toddler without his Dad, brake my heart into pieces, leave my lifeless. Why? Why would God allow such evil people who shows no remorse still be alive? While my loving, caring, husband and great father be gone?
As always, Thank you for reading,
Amanda
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