I don't even know where to start. You were my love, my wife, my life for 37 years. When I called the hospital and they said they were moving you to ICU, most people would have rushed there then, but you had been in ICU so many times in the past few years it had become routine...so I stayed at work. Then they called me 4 hours later and said I should come. Baby...you were gone by the time I got there and I'm so sorry. The last thing you ever said to me the night before was thinking about me. When we were in the ER and I wanted to stay you said; "Go home babe...please..you have work in the morning." I never should have listened. I should have stayed with you. I would give anyhting to have spent your last few hours with you.

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Comment by Lost & Alone on January 11, 2015 at 11:30pm

I know this will not help much, but my soulmate had been sick for nine years and I was not there at the end either. I knew he was going to die, but I did not know that night that I went to work he would be gone.

Your love knows that you love her, and she would never wish for you to blame your self, or feel guilty, the LOVE you shared is forever.

Do not let guilt robb you of your love.....

 

Comment by Linton on January 9, 2015 at 4:48pm

Thank you blue

Comment by bluebird on January 9, 2015 at 8:02am

I know it probably doesn't help much (I wasn't with my husband when he died, either, though his death was completely unexpected), but I'm sure your wife doesn't blame you at all.

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