I joined today to connect with people who may be feeling the same way I am..guilt, lost, alone, scared, angry, and moments of joy when I think about our life together.

I recently lost my husband of 26 years,  He was the first and last man I dated and had a relationship with.  He was my best friend, my rock, my love and connection to life.  He showed me how to be strong and independent, but i am not sure I can be without him most of the time.

Joining him is not an option!! I have too much of a sense of self-preservation and he would haunt me if I tried.  I know I will get through this but it seems so un-surmountable right now.

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Comment by bluebird on December 30, 2017 at 9:21pm

There are many of us here who feel much as you do.  My husband was the only person I ever really dated, the only person I had a relationship with, the only person I made love with....he was and is my soulmate, the love of my life, and when he died half of my soul was torn from me. I am sorry you are living in this hell as well.

I can't really provide any advice on how to "get through this", as I will never get through it, but there are others on this site who can provide you with that sort of advice. I hope you are able to find some peace and comfort.

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