14 mo after the death of my son, and i feel like i dont belong, Im in a different place than others around me. Things that used to hurt dont hurt. People seem different to me. When im driving in my car things are just gray. I hear people talk about relationships breaking up, and the cat dying ect... and how it is breaking their heart. I thought i have experienced the worst of the worst when it came to pain and heartache. When you lose a child you spend the rest of your life in torment, and pain. A mother has to wake everyday without that little hand to hold, even if the little hand turned into a big hand. Not having that hand to protect and to hold makes a mother really off balance. Only a mother knows of this balance. How my heart goes out to mothers who have lost a child. I feel i want to only be with mothers who are without there child, that way i belong. My world has changed so much, and i feel lonely.
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