My twelve year old daughter died june 23 2011. It was a very traumatic death i watched her bleed to death out of her mouth we did cpr but i felt so helpless! I still feel like shes gonna walk the front door.though i know thats not going to happen. It feels like just yesterday that everything happened i have visions constantly about that day the horrible sounds that came when i gave her breath n all the blood i have never seen so much blood. The look my daughter gave me before passing out i cant get that out of my mind she was so scared. It was so unexpected thats hard to. Im waiting to wake up from this nightmare! I dont talk to people about how im feeling because i dont want to worry them! Not even my husband knows how bad im hurting, sometimes i feel like he doesnt understand because it was his step daughter, though i know he loved her i feel like he cant relate to me no one i know can understand what i went threw and am still going threw. Its like one day i feel okay then the next everythings just going threw my mind constantly the what ifs or should coulda but didnt. You know what i mean like had i done this or that she could still be with us.
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