Why did GOD have this fate for me? Why did GOD leave me to be alone? Did he think I did not need anybody and that I can make it on my own? Why? I feel so lost and distraught that I can't function? I know its been seven months but thats seven extremely hurtful months and those hurful months will turn into hurtful years. So why would GOD want me to hurt so long? Was it something I did? Was it something I did not appreciate? I don't know! I am 26 years old and scared as hell as what life has to offer because that one support aspect of my life is not here! I am dealing with grown up responsibilites that half the people my age have not even thought of! Why was I one of the selected few to be hurt all of my life. Painful operations from birth, children not liking me because I was the only child and got everything, feeling lonely all the time because I carry myself more maturely than people my age, losing my father at 16, having a miscarriage at 22, losing my stepfather in 2011 and then losing my precious mother this year. How are we selected? I guess I will never know!

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Comment by Kisha on November 21, 2012 at 5:16pm
Brette, I often have those same questions. I don't understand why God would take my mom while I was pregnant. She never got to see or hold my son. I wonder if I'm being punished for something. I still have so many questions but fear I will never get them answered. People ask if I have asked God my questions. The answer is no because I'm not confident that he will answer. I'm not good at reading signs. I want to hear clearly.

Now the holiday season has begun and I'm supposed to go through it without my mom. How are we selected...that is the question.
Comment by dream moon JO B on November 2, 2012 at 4:24pm

i ask tht quesntnt som tims why dose god make us suffer and othrs in life never suffer on my dads side of the family why do they nealy get respity desese even the 1s who do not smoke and som times u sea bad people hav a good life i all ways ask tht yes im a bit religeses but i like to no why to

Comment by Dennis C. on November 2, 2012 at 6:57am
Brette,

I am so sorry for all that you have been through. But let me reassure you on one thing. God has nothing to do with death. Death is NOT part of God's purpose. Religion teaches us that, but that is not what the Bible really says. In fact, the Bible teaches us that we can rely on God during these difficult times, and find HOPE for the future.

HOPE brings comfort. HOPE brings purpose. HOPE gives us something to live for.

It doesn't take the pain away, but it does help us get through each day.

Knowing that God is part of the solution instead of part of the problem can be very comforting.
Comment by Tammy B. on November 1, 2012 at 10:16pm

Brette, I hardly ever come to this site much anymore, but I couldn't help responding when I saw your post.  It was so heartbreaking because you have experienced so much loss for someone so young, but God always has good plans for us, especially for those who have suffered so much.  You're such a beautiful girl and I believe our experiences shape us in life and the stronger we are the better.  I predict one day you'll be blessed and surrounded by a beautiful family of your very own.  That can't replace your mom or your dads, but now you have 3 guardian angels looking out for you.  Please just keep your heart open and good things will happen.  Try not to be scared because you'll mom will always be alive and right there with you in your heart and in heaven looking out for you.  Much love to you!

 

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