Hello Everyone!

I have been riding the "emotional" roller coaster of grief since May 25, 2009 when my daughter, Angela, was killed in a tragic 4 wheeler accident. She was only 33 years old. The accident occured in North Pole, AK. where she lived with her husband. I live in San Antonio, TX which is our home town.

We were so close as far as mother/daughter relationships go. We called, texted, or emailed each other daily, sometimes several times a day. She was so happy...she loved her life. She and I recently spent 4 days together in Las Vegas and had a great time!

Some days I do okay and other days not so okay. I have no desire to be around other people, including my family. I just want to be alone, at home, with my husband and 4 dogs. Sometimes I'm weepy and other times I am just so angy! How do others handle this?

I have always had a tendency to ramble so please just bear with me....

Also, I do keep a journal where I mostly write poetry reflecting different moods and emotions. I'm just not sure how much to share at times.

Please feel free to share with me any thoughts, insights and/or prayers that may have helped you cope with the loss of a child.

My thanks to you for taking the time to read my post.

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Comment by Laura Villarreal on April 11, 2010 at 11:57am
Maggie, thank you for your prayer! Take everything one day at a time. Grieving is one big roller coaster ride, lots of ups and downs, with some very sharp curves thrown in. We all grieve differently but we all hurt the same and feel like we just can't go on...this website has been a godsend for me and hope it is for you too.
Laura
Comment by margaret schroeder on April 10, 2010 at 7:25am
Hi sorry for your loss! I really have no advice for you as i just lost my son on march 25 2010. All i can say and do is say a prayer for your daughter and you. She sure was beutiful. It's just not fair to have to lose a child. I don't know what's in store for me yet. I'm still so angry over the circumtances of my son's death . And sick. I just don't know how i feel. God Bless you, Maggie
Comment by Katherine Ellis on July 24, 2009 at 1:17am
Time seems to be the only thing that heals any of the pain. And I've found that, even takes years. Writting the letters and poems is a great idea and coming on here is also wonderful. This site has helped heal me more than anything else I've tried. A good councilour can be helpful, as well as medications for really bad spells. Talking, talking, talking really helps. Not sure I've been any help. I'm sorry to hear of your loss. We are all hear to listen. We all understand ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
Comment by Laura Villarreal on July 17, 2009 at 5:46pm
Thank you so much. We always expect our children to bury us...each new day brings new feelings and emotions and some are very scary for me. I have written several poems and also letters to my daughter. And I do blog on myspace. Sometimes I feel like my family and friends get tired of me because I am still grieving. I do not work by choice so I really have nothing to occupy my time. I struggle each day to keep my emotions in check. My husband has been my rock; I also visit a behavioral therapist as needed, but might start doing it routinely. Again, thank you so much for taking the time to reply to my posts. I would welcome any guidance and suggestions from the members in this group.
Comment by Diana, Grief Recovery Coach on July 17, 2009 at 3:27pm
I am very sorry for the loss of your daughter. Journaling and writing poetry seems to be of great help to most. Feel free to ramble, we truly understand. (((((hugs)))))

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