Please help me...pain is unvearable at times

My husband got addicted to crack and took his life going on 4 years this July. We have two children together...ages 10 and 6. I long for the family I thought we would have. We were married for 16 years. I loved him very much. He started using back in 2002(he hid it from me).....I didn't find out until 2005. He was never mean to me or his children. I watched the man I love turn into someone I didn't even know. I need some support. I feel so alone and fight depression a lot. I can't seem to move forward. There are days I am OK and actually happy BUT I always get down again. I am 41.

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Comment by charlene aragon on March 4, 2011 at 8:39pm

Hey Melinda

I'm so sorry girl for your loss,  I have lost a few friends to drugs, and it sucks that a drug can take over a life.. Girl you got those babies that need you. I know how ur feeling, I lost my husband in Jan. 2011.  I think a good way to help you get thru this is those beautiful kids you had together, and know that he is part of them.. your kids need you, and I bet they remind u of him, but u made a family, and now thaey can help you try to move forward.  I don't know about moving on, but forward has to be better than nothing... Keep ur head up, and try to be strong for ur kids and you, its a life long proccess for some people. Your not alone.... Charlene

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