I lost my youngest sister to brain cancer on July 8. I managed to stay strong for her and her young daughters while helping to care for her at hospice at home. But now my heart is breaking with such sadness and sense of loss. She was only 44 and because of our age difference, I've always thought of her as my baby. I'm having trouble sleeping and when I do manage to sleep I wake up crying knowing that it was not a nightmare. She is gone. I love her so much and miss her terribly. It was so difficult to watch her health deteriorate. But I made a promise to myself that I would be there for her, taking care of her as I did when she was a baby. For this I am grateful that God gave me the strength to do this while my heart was breaking.

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Comment by Chelsea on September 4, 2012 at 9:22pm
You were an absolutelt amazing sister to her.I also lost my sister but it is good to know she is in heaven with my other family members.she was 21 when she died and i was seven.She was my rolemodel just like you were to your sister
Comment by Debra Waszut on July 28, 2012 at 6:43am

You are the sister everyone dreams of having. What a blessing you were to her.  She is in heaven now no pain no tears.  You did a wonderful awesome job and you should be so proud of yourself because I am sure god is.

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