Missing more than one.

My sister had me join this blog so that I could get some emotions out without burdening complete strangers, which I do often.

So here I go again. I feel like I lost more than my father I lost my mother as well. My mom has always worked and my father was the one who raised us. My mom had trouble relating to us, becasue of severe anxiety. SO my dad filled both roles at home. Now that he is gone it is apparent how little we actually had of our mother and now what remains is just an empty shell. There was so much life and love when my dad was here, now nothing exists in that house but  painful silence.

I can't bear it, I feel orphaned, so alone.

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Comment by Crystal Ann Spaulding on April 11, 2011 at 12:46pm
Yes we do need to put our family together again. Sometimes it just seems such a hard road. I find that I want to hide instead of trying. like I did this weekend.
Comment by Marian Johnson on April 10, 2011 at 2:35pm
Beautifully put sister. I feel the same and hoping that through time we will be able to piece back together what we have left of the family that we have now. I will always be there for all of you and slowly we will all heal.

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