Coming up on eight months since my son Jesse died. His birthday, the first Christmas without him. We have had a very hard winter so far. The summer and fall went by in a flash but this winter seems to drag on. I long for spring to see renewal.I find that the people in my life are saying his name less.Some seem worried that the depth of my grief is still immense.Almost as if I should be ''better'' by now. I am enormously resentful that I am supposed to mourn to conform to other peoples comfort levels. I saw a quote and I am sorry I don't know who it comes  from but here goes.....'' I will mourn and grieve for as long and deep as I have loved.''

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Comment by Lynn Williams on February 4, 2014 at 12:44pm

Dear Carla 

It will be six months on the 17th of February since my daughter past. Everyday I still cry, and the winter this year in Vermont seems endless.  I too can not wait for the spring and to get into my garden.  I know I will still cry everyday for a long while but that is how it is.  I am now able to put on my grocery store face to others and mourn when I am alone and feel comfortable with crying from the loss.  I keep those feelings private now except for a few friends and the grief group I attend.  Only others who have faced this type of loss get it.  Being alone with her in my mind and heart bring me closer to her. Much love to you Lynn Williams  

Comment by Carla Campbell on February 4, 2014 at 9:09am

Thank you I appreciate your support.The only people who can really understand are those who are also travelling the same path.

Comment by anne on February 3, 2014 at 8:19pm

Bravo! I cheer for you! Do it your way. No one has the right to put a time limit on grief. Especially when your grieving your child. We all need to speak out about others time limits on those of us who have to travel this awful road.

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