It's been a year

So it has been over a year since my dad passed away, and it is coming up on the year mark for my mom. To this day it has been horrible. I feel nothing has changed for me regarding the pain I feel and my daily crying spells. People look at me as if I am going crazy and I feel like I am alone. For some reason I just cant "deal" with the loss of my parents. I am looking for anything and everything to help me through this. I even went to see a medium but it was a pleasant experience but I was hoping to hear a message from my parents but I wasnt one of the lucky ones to get one. I seen a therapist all last year but had stopped because my old therapist moved so I got stuck with a lady who made it seem like she was just there for a paycheck. I know I have severe depression but I dont want to take any type of medication but I dont know what else to do. It hurts to look at pictures, to go to my dad's grave site. My friends tell me to think about the memories I have had with them but that hurts even more. I dont want to think of them because I feel I was shorted. I only got 25 years with them and they only lived to reach 40's. Anyone reading this who has any type of suggestion to help me move one step closer to not crying everyday I would be more than happy to hear. I just miss my parents more than ever and now I am stuck in this world with no one who would love me as much as they did. Life aint fair.

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Comment by Lucy Russo on March 2, 2013 at 1:18pm
I know how you feel - I lost my dad many years ago and my mom, who was my world to me a month ago. I keep trying to focus on the fact that I was lucky enough to have had such great parents. I know many who aren't that fortunate and I can't imagine living a lifetime with parents who weren't there for you. Try to find some comfort in what you had instead of what you lost. Their great qualities must surely be part of who you are - try to use those qualities to bring comfort and joy to other people.
Comment by Melisa C on March 1, 2013 at 5:29am

I know how you feel. My mom was the person who loved me the most, I was the same to her, so now it's like something too valuable has been lost. Tina, can't you get to see another therapist? It's important to get help when we can't cope. I don't like the thought of taking medication either but if it got to the point where it's unbereable I would take them. Just consider it.

Comment by Stephanie Wilson on February 28, 2013 at 10:14pm
I forgot to write this I have severe depression and take meds it does help me otherwise I don't know what I would do.
Comment by Stephanie Wilson on February 28, 2013 at 10:11pm
You are not alone. The pain of losing your parents is terrible. I lost my father the only man I knew I could truly rely on and the pain is unbearable . That am greatful that I found this group because we all know each other feels. Hopefully we can all help each other.
Comment by dream moon JO B on February 28, 2013 at 3:35pm

i understand how u feal tina my dads anversy is coming up ths sunday whot makes it worse iv ad more loses after him surgate unlce nboz and family friends of the family 

i went on line to get a free reading from a sycic but dudnt get any mesages i didnt 3 of thm saed the sam thng tara woz 1 and nora woz 1 and jenna woz 1 the 3 meadims tht sent me the reading emails just saed i let peol treat me like a door mat wish is true i do let peole treat me like adoor mat and iv got a lot of health isues wish woz spot on but i wontet the measage frm my dad but didnt get 1

i try to art and i do take alot of fotos wit my didgal carma if u hav a camra it mite help u take fotos or my litel mini camcorda wish i try to catch life on it if u hav 1 of thm tht mite help usory if iv bean no help

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