My mom past away 5 years ago, 6 years in october. It wasn't something anyone would ever expect. Cancer wasn't found or treated in time..

I just want to talk to her again. I want her advice and comfort. It gets hard now when It sinks in that she will never meet my girlfriend, she won't be there at my wedding, I'll never have the chance to treat her like she deserved and hang out like we should be doing. I just know we'd get on so well now I'm older, she was always the one I'd talk to about depression/the way I felt when I was younger. .

Death is too much to get your head around.
I know my life must go on and I'll make her proud no matter what.. but it's just when it hits you: I'll never ever see her again, we'll never talk again. Ever. I'm only 24, I've got so many years ahead of me without her.

To those that have lost, I'm so so , so sorry.
there isn't alot you can say or even do. You will have times where you can deal with loss well, and times where you think of them and smile, knowing you knew them, that you can still talk to them in your head (even outloud at a photograph) you'll speak of there name and nature in the best of ways.

There are also times like this..
The facts dawning on you that you always knew but you never properly grasped. Its like I'm going through it all over again. I will never ever see my mum again, my mum. that will never sink in fully.

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Comment by Alin Tooby on June 10, 2016 at 5:23pm

Welcome to the group Corey.  I am very sorry to hear of your loss. Like you i also lost my mother, just three months ago. It is an insane concept to think that we will never see out beloved mothers again. You sound like you were very close with your mom so i am sure she was very special.   I too think about how hard it will be to get married some day with her there.   Sadly i lost my dad too, just 8 monts before i lost my mom.  I think about how unfair it will be if i have kids some day, that they will never get to hang out with grandma and grandpa.   It really does suck and it also hurts like hell.   Some days it just to much to grasp and i cant control the tears from falling from my eyes. Other days i wake up and see their pictures, Wish them good morning and go on my way.  Either way, every day is the same in the sense that we are here and they are not. It is nice to have out memories and it is also nice to have a place where we can come and talk about our hurt and loss without any judgement. The venting that you can receive here from a few blurbs can be a huge relief on the aching heart. It also doesnt hurt to talk to your dear mom. Perhaps in speaking to her when you need advice, the answers will come to you.    I hope you can find comfort and peace soon. Blessings and hugs.

Sincerely,

Alin 

Comment by Corey on June 6, 2016 at 10:39am
This is also my first post on here. I dont have to many friends and I don't want to keep turning to my girlfriend when I'm upset. Even though she said I can always talk to her about it. I feel pathetic when I'm upset,. It makes matters more upsetting that, when I'm upset or going through a tough time I want to talk to my mum again and get her advice.
Anne Marie Downs, I love and miss you so much.. Thankyou the love and patience, the care and time you had for me. Thank you for everything.

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