It will be 2 years June 26th that Mom passed. I can't even use the word "died". My life is such a struggle. I try so hard to be the best person I can be. The job I loved, as a veterinary nurse/tech, is now something I can no longer put my heart into. The women I work with UNBEARABLE. They have told the boss that I don't carry my weight. I was floored. Had a good cry this morning. My day off - I am crying. I have absolutely no one to tell me everything is OK. My family is so dysfunctional. After Mom passed my 3 sisters just poof...went their way. The family I thought I had....gone. Mom I miss you so much. I need you today more than I did yesterday. I have lost my purpose. My heart aches. I have absolutely no one that truly cares about me. I am alone and it feels terrible.

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Comment by dream moon JO B on June 27, 2013 at 3:54pm

my mum saw th dr today sue he told her wen som 1 pass it can carz a lot of proms in th famly frm helth isuses to famly faling out

my nease is 1 is carzin truble on off she hurt my mums fealing lst yr sayng to us bith get ovr it foget abot him

evn told me im to blam for evry thng in th famly fromm thm getng colds to big c im ashamd to say if i had not went off fow a lile wark som wear i wud of hit her

my harf broth has told my harf sistr his tiold her a few tims she wonts to lern to keap her gob shut coz som 1 will hit her if shess not carfull

shes abot 31 now yea my mum dad had me late in lifee im 38 now ill be 39 end of yr

i thngs its beging to a famly tradisin befroe i woz born on my dads sid wen his dad died famly feud strt up

now its hapnd again now its both sids wen u go to funrell cristng so on u can spell th frictsin in th famly

if i am to blame for evrys 1s ill helth i will end up fryng in th bad plase 

Comment by Sue Waxman on June 27, 2013 at 8:56am

JP (Jo),

I understand the family feud thing. I have 3 sisters who I always loved and went out of my way to let them know how much I loved them. When Mom passed they completely turned into the most vicious monsters. They kept me out of the loop on everything regarding my Mothers funeral and estate. They forbid me from going to her condo. Had a restraining order put out on me stating I threatened their lives. They broke my heart as much as loosing my mother did. Mom and I were the closest. She saw what was coming down the pike with them but it was to late to change the Executor of her estate. My sister Sydney was the executor. I asked for one little table from her condo, they refused. It was unbelieveable how they turned the tables and made me look like a monster. My mothers sister saw the truth. She is all I have in the way of family. It has been two years and my sisters are out of my life. They just poof...gone like I never existed. I am sorry you are going through the same. Sue

Comment by Sue Waxman on June 27, 2013 at 8:50am

Thank you Kristen. I am so sorry about your husband. I have my good days and bad. Today is a good day. I am on a dating site and have had a few responses. I am not sure I want to go there. But I have been completely alone for a long time. I am becomming very antisocial outside of the work place. Thank you for caring, it mean so much. Sue

Comment by kristen on June 26, 2013 at 1:03am

Sue, we don't know each other and I know I can't fill your heart the way your mom could but in just want to tell you... Everything WILL be okay.   Its not easy but it will be OK.  I understand the feeling though. My husband passed three months ago and of the many many things I miss... Having him to hold me is at the top of that list because in his arms..I felt everything is okay... Even if it wasn't.  I hope your says get easier.  As and it will be okay... It will. 

Comment by dream moon JO B on June 22, 2013 at 3:57pm

sinse my dad died evry thng seams to go wong famly feud on both sids now to many thngs hav bean saed tht  u cant tak bac 

if my dad had bean hear it wud of not hapend all thes cruel wordss i try to respect my eldrs i no not many pepl do 

Comment by Bern on June 21, 2013 at 11:10pm

May be the flaw was left motherless, like my son left me 8 months ago.

Comment by Melisa C on June 20, 2013 at 4:39pm

I understand you so much, it's hard to see the meaning of life when they are no longer with us. About the mean people, and the frustations at work, well, I always relied on Mom to talk all that out with her. It takes a bit of the load off when you can share it with someone who loves you and cares for you. Now it's hard, since I have to deal with everything on my own.

I send you a hug, Sue.

Comment by dream moon JO B on June 20, 2013 at 3:26pm

i no how u feal sinse my dad my dad past lst yr me mum feal so alone peple dont understand grief th 1s it did undrstand frinds of th famly nealy all past now 

i begin to relize u can only grief it our own spead iv had peple tryn to forse us to get ovr it wish is wong to do

sory if im sayng all wong tnhgs

jo

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