How do I go on

Today it has been 4 weeks since my younger brother commited suicide and it still feels like it was today when my dad called me at work to tell me he was gone... I wake uo everyday thinking it was a dream and he's still here, but then I see his picture and I cry, realizing it wasnt a dream and that he really is gone. I just miss him so much, the pain is unbearable... I dream of going to his funeral over and over and me crying when I saw his peaceful face in the casket when i got to say goodbye... My cheeks will never be dry again im afraid...I just feel like letting go.

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Comment by Savannah Schneider on June 6, 2018 at 4:34pm
Thank you Avi
Comment by Avi on June 5, 2018 at 11:29pm

I feel really sorry to hear it Savannah. I wish all the strength in the world. Grief can break or give you strength, please chose the latter. 

Your brother is still with you. 

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