hell on earth

everyday the pain gets worse, to lose my only child my beautiful son shawn. my heart hurts so bad and to breathe even gets harder. tears fall so easy, shawn you are and will always be my life, my love. will I ever get passed this NO. can I go on without you  NO. you are the best thing that ever happened to me, without you its just not worth it any more. I know when I cry and talk to you , you can hear me. I know you can feel me. but for me not to feel you hear you see you its  killing me. I smell your clothes  god how I need and miss you. I beg you every night not to leave me alone, to take me with you. to hold me tight. my beautiful son im living in hell with out you. to have this pain every single day its not worth it, I need you so much. im empty, lonely, dead inside now. what I would give to hold you kiss you again.  forever the love of my life shawn,  love and miss you mom.

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Comment by Brenda Ann on September 24, 2014 at 2:14pm

Dear Kim, (((((HUGS)))))

     I am so sorry to hear about your loss of Shawn. It is so heart wrenching to see the agony you are in, that it affects me too. You mentioned in an earlier post, "I'm so mad at God for taking you away". When I first read those words I just wanted to reach into the computer to give you a hug. But even more than that I am so sorry that somewhere in your life you have been taught that God takes our loved ones. If that were true, it would be the most horrific betrayal in life.

     Death is because of Satan, Adam and Eve's rebellion against God and his sovereignty. Satan wanted the worship that man was and would give to God. He was created as a perfect angelic son of God but he began to dwell on the desire for prominence. So he used a snake like a puppet and twisted the words of God to entice the youngest of the two humans to follow him and leave off serving our creator. -

(Romans 5:12) That is why, just as through one man sin entered into the world and death through sin, and so death spread to all men because they had all sinned."

     Death and sickness is because to Satan. God loves us and will help us to cope until he can correct the harm Satan has caused. He sent his only begotten son, the first born of all creation to die for us. He did this because of his intense love for mankind. Then he has set his son up with a Kingdom government to remove all wickedness and causes of suffering on earth.

(Revelation 11:18) . . .bring to ruin those ruining the earth. . .

 

(Psalm 37:10, 11) Just a little while longer, and the wicked will be no more; You will look at where they were, And they will not be there. 11 But the meek will possess the earth, And they will find exquisite delight in the abundance of peace.

 

(Psalm 37:29) The righteous will possess the earth, And they will live forever on it.

 

(John 5:28, 29) . . .Do not be amazed at this, for the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice 29 and come out. . .

     Yes, your son and all our lost loved ones will be resurrected to a paradise. God promises then that death will be no more. Revelation 21:4 Jehovah inspired Isaiah to prophesy about everlasting life on earth. (Read Isaiah 25:7, 8.) Like a suffocating “envelopment”—a blanket—sin and death have weighed heavily on mankind. Jehovah assures his people that sin and death will be swallowed up, or removed, “from all the earth.”

I hope that this brings a measure of relief…

Lean on our Creator,

Brenda

(Isaiah 41:10) Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be anxious, for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes, I will help you, I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness.’




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