my beautiful son shawn, my heart aches so much each and every day for you. sometimes I wonder where all my tears come from, I cry so much my eyes hurt. there are times I just want to scream my head off, and times I just cant breathe. shawn I cant go on, I just cant move any more. I think about being with you each and everyday. that's what I want more then anything.  to kiss your face, hold you, and never let you go. how can everyone go on, my heart is so empty, broken, shattered.  my life is over im ready to be with you. please shawn take my hand. I want to smile again to laugh with you again.  help me shawn , to end my pain and be close to you again. you are forever the love of my life, my reason to live but now  my reason to go with you. fill my heart again my baby, take me with you.  loving you with everything I have forever   mom

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Comment by kim on October 8, 2014 at 8:51am

hi Lilliana, thank you so much for careing. I cry all the time, I miss my son so much. I ask everyday why he went away, and never an answer. its unbearable pain, I just want so bad to go with him, shawn is the love of my life, im so dead inside. I go see him every day and again cry my heart out. I keep telling my self he will come hom to me, its the only way I can live right now. some times I wonder where all my tears come from, I could fill an ocean. I know im pushing my husband away but any more I just don't care. I want to die and be with my baby. I cant go on with out him, I need him so much.  its hard to type this I cry so hard. im so very sorry for your loss, whats left of my heart goes out to you.  thank you for being a friend, hugs and love to you    kim

Comment by Lilliana on October 8, 2014 at 2:49am

Kim, my tears won't stop as I read your post. I have felt this was numerous times, I can't get over my loss and that empty feeling.  I will say an extra prayer for you tonight, my heart goes out to you. Please hang in there Kim, just breathe and hopefully little by little the pain will subside so you can breathe a bit more and perhaps even smile for a moment at a time...

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