Green Beans make me cry.

I lost my wife 18 months ago.

I cried at all the normal times. But it is food that really gets me. The first time I really got it bad was at an Asian restaurant. One we had been to often. When I started eating the green beans. I remembered the last time all the girls ate with there mother. I asked where would you like to eat and she said. I don't care as long as they have green beans. My wife was like that. She would always say you choose or pick one item she would like.

That kind of thing set me off a lot at first. I could not even eat at the work parties. Now just the other day. I was at at a buffet. Picked op some cheese cake. Then it hit me. When we first started to date she would treat me with cheese cake.. I am a big guy. I always wonder what people think when they see me crying.

This is my first blog post and I don't wright well. I just need to let some out.

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Comment by Terrance Smops on February 1, 2013 at 8:47pm

Starting to get into a funk again. We were married on Valentine day.

Comment by Terrance Smops on December 30, 2012 at 7:39pm

Bought Lorrie a present today. We liked to shop after Christmas. I am feeling good.

I put a few bucks in the red kettle this year too. That was always her thing.

Comment by Terrance Smops on December 7, 2012 at 5:55pm

Yesterday another bad day. I changed the phone line to my name the day before. don't figure that one. It did not hit me until the end of the day at work. It took a while to get myself back together.I even miss the junk mail with her name on it.

They thought it was my allergies. 

Comment by dream moon JO B on October 26, 2012 at 3:26pm

yes same hear i sea food and say my dad liket that ther is a few times iv bort it and saed my dad will like this and some days i fogot his gone 

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