Today is September 1, 2012, I lost my beautiful older sister of 67 yrs old, from lung cancer on Aug 22, 2012 11:20 pm. Losing my sister has left emptiness in my heart so painful only praying can help get through the day. My sister meant so much to me. Just talking to her made my day. She moved to Florida about a year ago, but we always kept in contact every day. We always had something to say; sometimes we call two times a day. It was almost never enough. We really enjoy talking or laughing over silly things we said to each other, boy was that fun! She loved hearing me talk. She would laugh so hard and now I’m left with the wonderful memories we had. I awake each morning to start a new day but the pain of losing never goes away. I go about the things I have to do, and as the hours pass I think of you. I want to call you and just hear your voice, and then I remember you are not there and my heart cries. If only I could see you again and tell you goodbye. My sister never knew she had lung cancer. She became sick but all we thought it was just a simple thing so I told her go to the doctor. On Monday August 9^th, there it was the bad news. It was after an x ray, which told us she had lung cancer! From there came the crying, the pain and more bad news. Everything seemed to so hopeless. I just couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Over and over, I said no it can’t be, she can’t have lung cancer. I got on my laptop and tried to get the first ticket to be near her. I got on my fright to Florida on the Aug 13^th. I spent that night with her. We held hands, kissed and hugged. I got to tell her how much I really love her and that all my life, she has being very special to me. I begged, please don’t live me, be strong, you can fight this. The doctor came in room and had more bad news. He said that she is in need of a surgery and I ask why. He replied that she had a massive tumor in the bran and it metastasized. I just didn’t know where to turn. Everybody was just in shock. I looked at my sister and tears came down my eyes. I said to myself, “God please don’t take her away now, please heal her and take away this cancer.” On Aug 15^th, she went for surgery. On Aug 16^th, she went in to a coma and from there her life slipped away into the hands of the Lord, away from suffering and pain.

In memories of you, my dear sister, until we meet again.

-Anita