I am new in this community and lost my partner of 17 years to tuberculosis a year ago. Tody the greif has been so bad I have been in bed most of the day. Some days I just can not get up. I barly make it to the shop to buy food for dinner.

I am totally alone without friends or family or associates.

I have been living in Mexico for 10 years and landed back in Australia and am currently in a deserted rural town.

I plan to move on as soon as I can into a better place for me.

I am 60 years old and I am absolutely lost without her.

I am trying my very best but some days its just too much and I have to lay down.

Lis 

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Comment by Jenny Renn on August 18, 2014 at 6:49pm

It's true, words are inadequate most of the time.  Even when a friend lost her father, I was still at a loss to say the right thing.  

Sometimes you think that you are doing well and then one day you can spiral into a sorrow and pain that you do not think will ever end.  But, life must go on and I once heard that we must remember - Always blessings, never losses.  After getting a good cry out I remind myself that I was very fortunate and blessed to have had 2 wonderful parents who loved me.  I am one of 4 children and they loved us each equally and unconditionally.  The pain we feel is because we were loved and now we cannot see, feel or hear that love from that person but we are so blessed and lucky to have felt what loving and being loved was like.  True, pure, unconditional love.  Not everyone experiences that.  I know of friends who have yet to find their partner or a partner who is their soul mate.  It sounds like she was yours. 

Comment by Elizabeth on August 18, 2014 at 5:31pm

Thanks for our reply .It could help me from the outside . thankyou for your kind thoughts. Im sorry you are hurting too. Words sometimes seem so inadequate for expression of deep feelings .

Im so sorry about your loss and your tears and feelings of emptiness. Its very difficult isn't it to just take another step forward at times.

Comment by Jenny Renn on August 18, 2014 at 8:39am

Hi Lis

I just wanted to say hi and to say that you are not alone.  Take each day as it comes and don't put too much pressure on yourself but know that your partner would want you to be in a happier place.  I am sitting here with red eyes crying over losing my parents.  My Father passed on last September and my Mother just this January.  Today I just started crying for no real reason other than the emptiness that is apparent shows itself more sometimes than other days.  

A better place with more of a community sounds lovely and hopefully in time, you will get to be part of that.  

Take care.

Jenn

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