20 long months

its been so long since I held my son, heard his voice. its all like yesterday for me. the unbearable pain still here. I keep telling my self he will come home, back to me. I cry all the time, waiting begging him to come back. its all my fault, I should have been harder on him, to take better care of his self. I pray to go with him everyday. waiting for him to take my hand. I cant go on without my shawn, im so tired, lonely, and still so  empty. please god hear my crys, take me to please 

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Comment by Gita KG on July 8, 2015 at 4:46pm
Kim, how are you at this moment? I just joined and your blog post tugged at my heart. This does feel unbearable.

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