Lately I have been struggling and going through a rough time again. My moms anniversary was last week and i've been so busy with life that i'm having a hard time to keep myself floating above water. I feel this rage in me that i'm trying to control. I cant help but be in a bad mood right now and being around people certainly doesn't help. This loss is a big one because my mother was my best friend as a child and i had to grow up without her. I'm at a loss at what to do at this point, i'm…

Another year since my father has been gone will be creeping up again. For everyone else it will be just a normal day they are trying to get through, but not me, it’s another year without my dad around. It should get easier as every passing year goes by but it doesn't for me, it just reminds me of all the things I didn't get to do with my father. It reminds me that I've been cheated out of having a semi normal life. The demons I’m battling are so big it’s hard not to have them going through…

This week I will officially be out of the teen years and turn 20 years old and I have to say a revelation came upon me and I can’t believe I have actually made it to 20. There has been many times where I’ve wanted to just give up and not continue because life has not been so easy for me to say the least. The of the main things that consume me the deaths of my parents to not have them here for me is just tremendously hard. I think about them every day and wonder if they would be proud of…

I am finding myself struggling lately. I'm at a point where i'm stuck and I don'y know what my next move will be because I live in fear most of the time. I am only 19 and living without parents is a constant struggle for me. As i was in 5th grade when my mom died and I witnessed her battle with cancer and her last breath. I was in 8th grade when I lost my dad and it was completely unexpected. I came home from school one day and found him. Since they has been gone I've been through a heck of…