I don't know if it's normal to be stuck in different stages of grief at the same time or not, but for me, it has been going on for awhile now! I miss my mom so much it hurt, and I'm angry at myself plus the doctors for not doing anything about it! I luckily have never been mad at God, I sometimes get mad that the only person I truly had, was taken away from me but to be directly mad at him, I haven't! There has been talk between some of Mom's 'friends' and all they could talk about, was that…

I can't believe she is really gone...that this just isn't true...that I'll never see my girl ever again...I loved her so much..for all my life it was "us"...We had 2 wonderful boys that I know miss their mom terribly ...She loved them with all her heart ... I find myself crying every day...me..who everyone considers a strong guy..crying when I see a dress hanging in the closet she''ll never wear again..a bike in the garage that she loved to ride..never again...pictures of us skiing,…

odd title ,I was let loose from the constaints of my marraige and the life I knew before she died.(floating in outer space) I think its horrible for anyone to lose a loved one.I have always had an immense hold on my emotions as far as angery outburst or crying.

Do I get periods of grief,yes the kind that paraylze your body. We should have never got married but we did for 35 yr ,Maby she saved me from worst things ,however you could never go up against her.

What makes it worst…

In the three months since my husband passed away from multiple myeloma

I have discovered that grief is sneaky! Many days I have felt better, only to

feel anger or dissolve into tears when confronted by something that

reminded me of him or the disease itself. I took my rage out on the illness

and for a short time turned my back on the many friends and medical

staff who had supported us so much through the years. By avoiding

people around me & the places Bill…

 So my birthday ended up not being that bad. It did start out rough. I cried the whole morning knowing I was not going to get the phone call I usually did from my dad. I smiled despite the pain of it all. I cried like 5-10 times during the day off and on. Thankfully the wishes I got from my friends and family helped mask the missing part.

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if heven is a plase on earth wear is earth is earth a good plase to live or is it a bad plase to live like h e l l or is earth the h e l l we live in wit bad thng happing evry day

wen we 1st saw tht film my dad saed yrs ago life is a never ending story evry day we go thru a difrent chapta in our livess we do 

i rember tht john lenon song imangine my dad saed that song madee sense

So lately I thought I've been dealing with things pretty well.  My husband and I are set to close on our new home on Friday, work has been going well-- all in all, I'm doing ok.  Growing up, I always listened to rock, alternative, or punk music (I still have the tattoos and piercings, and wear my Converse One Stars to this day).  On my way to work today, I heard the song Daniel (originally performed by Elton John) sung by Fuel.  Now I haven't listed to Fuel since high school, but was a fan…

I rememebr the day my son passed away like it was yesterday. I held him on my chest whiles he took his last breathe. As his mother i felt helpless there was nothing i could do to help him. theres not a day that goes by that i dont think of him. I constanly pleaded to god " how could u take a baby from me at only 5 months old?" none of it seemed fair to me it still don't.There are mothers out there that…

I know this may be selfish. I haven't written anything about my dad and my loss yet, but my birthday is tomorrow and it's going to suck.

It's going to suck because, my dad won't be calling me and telling me that I 21 or 18, just to keep him from feeling old.…

In a three month period I lost my grandfather, gave birth three weeks later to a beautiful baby girl and then four weeks later lost my mom.  It has been a difficult year and I am just trying to stay a float these days.  I have waves of sadness that just overcome me at any given minute.  My mom is on my mind constantly.  Dealing with my grandfather's death was hard but not nearly as trying as my mother's.  My grandfather died after a long struggle due to health issues and his age.  My mother…

I found this site yesterday, and I'm hoping it helps.  Growing up, my father was the strongest person I knew - he always provided for his family, was a hard worker, and a loving father, husband, son, brother, uncle, and friend.  A month after his 49th Birthday, my father had a massive stroke and they didn't think he would make it through the night.  Wrong - my father was a fighter.  Over the years, he had many complications from the stroke, to the point where it was too hard for him to fight…

It's on the 19th and I don't know what to do with myself! I was always guarenteed to spend the day with her. When I was in school, she would let me stay out and she would take off from work. We would go out to eat and then shopping for a bit. When I graduated from High School, it still continued, she took off from work and we would go out to eat then to the tattoo place. I never imagined that last year would be my last birthday with her! I'm contemplating on admitting myself into the…

Warning: This summary of what happened to my dad may be a trigger to others.. Please read at your own discretion as this is pretty detailed.

Just a bit of a background before I proceed: My dad was diagnosed with Myesthenia Gravis, a chronic autoimmune neuromuscular disease about 10 years ago. This disease requires the use of immuno-suppressants, which if taken for an extended amount of time, may cause cancer (in this case,…

there is sum days i want to foget bday cuming up coz my dad is not ther to enjoy it he enjoyed bdays beter then others did                                                                                                               xmas coz it woz my dads tim of yer it woz his bday boxing day and he enjoyed xmas like a big kid even new yer he enjoyed allways hopet on news yer day the yer wood be a good 1 well not this yer             easter he enjoyed only for the sweats he cud eat 

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• Posted by Irwin Dresner  on October 2, 2012 at 9:51am
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This Friday it will be 3 years since my wife passed away. In that 3 years my daughters came to visit me 2 times. I live in NEW YORK they live in Florida. A month ago my older daughter flew to Boston…

On the one year anniversary of my sister's passing. A mass is scheduled. Mom, dad and I plan to attend. Dad called brother-in-law to let him know we will stop by on our way to mass. He is fishing, but will be home in the afternoon. On arrival to their home, their two teenage boys are home watching tv. We chat with them. We decide to take some pictures of their lawn, plantings, flowers, etc. She loved her outside space. We get ready to leave and BIL pulls in with his boat. He brings his…

I lost my Mom April 2011. I think Im getting better these days and than I have a day like today where all I wanna do is cry. She was my best friend. We talked everyday if not a couple times a day. So when Im having a bad day like today and I cant pick up the phone and call her I get real sad and mad. I have been having alot of off the wall dreams lately so this is another reason why Im probably upset today too. I talk to my friends and my immediate family about my feelings sometimes and I…

Yesterday was hard. I get blindsided every now and then with the grief. I miss my husband so much. I feel like he was taken away too soon. My daughter told me that God took him at the right time. Everything happens according to God's plan. I know that but it doesn't make me feel any better. I was counting on us growing old together. The holidays are going to be harder this year than last year. Last year I was still in a fog, just going through the motions. This year everything is clear and…