Today I have no voice. I have been pretty sick these past days. I haven't had food in 7 days. My stomach won't hold anything, and they don't know what's wrong. A very sweet, and wonderful friend of mine passed away last week, and I just found out today. My heart is broken. My eyes are blinded with tears. Today my hope is gone. Today I am scraping the bottom of the barrel for just one glimpse of light. Dear God, I know you are here, but I can't feel you near me today. I'm so tired. I feel so…

I want to thank you all for your comments and kindness. I have not given up on life, but I have given myself a break and allowed myself to fully feel the pain of my losses. I am moving through one day at a time and trying to stay productive. Blessings to all of you.

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It's hasn't been  2 weeks yet that I lost my best friend  and love of my life. Last week after Tom past I went to my grand daughters 6th birthday and yesterday I got out and went to my niece's 18th birthday. I had fun,  it was good to see family but yet Tom wasn't there and it didn't feel right being there and I really couldn't wait to get home even though I knew Tom wasn't going to be here. So empty and lost.

It's hasn't been  2 weeks yet that I lost my best friend  and love of my life. Last week after Tom past I went to my grand daughters 6th birthday and yesterday I got out and went to my niece's 18th birthday. I had fun,  it was good to see family but yet Tom wasn't there and it didn't feel right being there and I really couldn't wait to get home even though I knew Tom wasn't going to be here. So empty and lost.

On January 31, 2014 my partner of eight years had an argument because she had been cheating on me and I was DONE. During the night she was restless and kept waking me up wanting to know where my phone was or where the charger was. Then she said "You're gonna learn." She was alive when I left Saturday morning. She had written a note but my anger and hurt from her betrayal blinded me to the contents of the letter. I wrote her a letter back telling her to go be happy. I assumed she would be…

When he came to the end of his journey, traveled his last weary mile.

I submit sometimes he frowned, but only remember his smile.

As I work on this list trying hard to resist, all that made me sad.

I remember the good he has done all the fum we had.

You see his love is never ending and to this I can attest.

And come in the shade of evening when the sun paints the sky in the west, He stands for a few moments besides me and I remember only his…

As I sit and wonder about this day.

I kneel to God and begin to pray.

Help me dear Father, when the pain is so great.

To understand his destiny was not mine to orchestrate.

You let me enjoy him and make memories.

Then you took him to heaven to abide with Thee.

So I'll accept your doing, even though I don't understand.

For I must be someone special to have held a true…

about two months ago my teacher told me that she is so sorry about my loss. then she told me that my brother killed himself my brother was my every thing I keep thinking that if I didn't go to school my brother would still be alive. I miss him so so much

Today has been the day from hell!  

My daughter and her young children moved home a month ago so she can get back on her feet.  I have done everything that I can help her and the kids.  Paid their bills, fed them, kept a roof over their head and never put pressure on them.  However, last night my daughter asked for the father of her children to spend the night.  I stuck by my word there will be no sleep overs.  Of course this led to drama, where her and my husband got into an…

Lately I have been struggling and going through a rough time again. My moms anniversary was last week and i've been so busy with life that i'm having a hard time to keep myself floating above water. I feel this rage in me that i'm trying to control. I cant help but be in a bad mood right now and being around people certainly doesn't help. This loss is a big one because my mother was my best friend as a child and i had to grow up without her. I'm at a loss at what to do at this point, i'm…

Our son died from a Heroin overdose this last September, I found him dead in his room, he was 26 years old, we did not know he had a Heroin issue, our hearts are just broken, I miss him so much, he was our third child of four, just having a hard dealing with it

My wife of 43 years died five weeks ago, very unexpected and sudden.  I realized I had two choices with my relationship with God and His son.  Move closer or move away.  Choose wisely.

Grief to me is a journey, with a beginning and and end.  It starts one step and then one day at a time.  It is like entering a long dark tunnel.  Once you enter you stumble on the obstacles on the floor and run into the walls because you cannot see the way out.  If you believe and have faith in God,…

Coming up on eight months since my son Jesse died. His birthday, the first Christmas without him. We have had a very hard winter so far. The summer and fall went by in a flash but this winter seems to drag on. I long for spring to see renewal.I find that the people in my life are saying his name less.Some seem worried that the depth of my grief is still immense.Almost as if I should be ''better'' by now. I am enormously resentful that I am supposed to mourn to conform to other peoples…

I have heard those questions a lot. Heck I've asked those same questions myself over, and over! I don't ask them anymore because I know the answers now. When my little boy burned in that car God was there. When my Ben was killed, and my daughter permanently injured, God was there. He was there all along. I just didn't know it because the pain, grief, and sorrow were so strong I couldn't hear or feel God's presence. I was so angry with God that I didn't want him near me. I didn't want God to…

I offer yet another impression of ‘normal’ grief and complicated grief. I approach all grief reactions as a complication in the life of the individual who seeks help with this human phenomenon. We travel life’s roadway and suddenly, around the bend, the bridge is out. A death, a life-threatening diagnosis, accident, layoff notice, or other traumatic change has painfully altered the course of our journey and requires a new way of looking at life. The process of grieving represents a…