its nealy bean a yr sisne u died i no u wod be upset wi me for fealing guilty al the tim i did not no u wear going to die if i stayed wud i hav stopet u from dying the anser is i dnt no

i woz a very lucky to hav a dad who realy cared for us and loved all of us u always did even stood up for us even tht tim wen the family wear after my blood aftr 1 of my cuzens had a stroke 

the day she foned before the stroke she had a go at u for not runing after her thn foned again and had a…

is it just me or dose any 1 else find thm selfs doing silly thngs in grief buy ther loved 1s thngs or still hoping its a big mistake and thy r going to come thr u the door saying its all bean a big mistake im still hearor u went to sea the wong body it woz my luck alike u saw i no iv bean told wen u breav u will find yore self doing silly thngs 

i feal very lost and wit my dads 1st yr anversy coming up i feal even more lost after my dad died it seamd to be more death and more death last death woz my cuzens husband same type of person as my dad great person allways thnging of others 

i got lost in 2012 after my dad coz to may peopel i new died the last death woz my surgate uncle last yr and this yr 2013 iv new 6 people who died in 2013 ths month the last 1 woz my cuzens husband  a goood man like my dad 2 freinds of my mum and dads 2 nbors 1 to alzimers and 1 to 2 hit and run drivers and a cuzen who i only sea at partys abd im still lost in grief its like a fog i cant get out of…

death runs in 3s janury 2013 monday 7th january the last few days all iv herd is death a freind of my dads died jimmy nbor died thn today in the obitchery another frined of my mum and dads brian who had the big c i feal like death is folloring me all over                                                                                              i hate death it just seams 1 funrall after a another funrall 

IM PLEASED 2012 HAS GONE ALL THE BAD LOOK WIT IT I WOZ WONG GOT A CARL OFF MY ANTI ON THUSDAY TO SAY 1 OF MY DADS FREIND JIMMY HAD DIED SAW A OLD NBOR GEORGE WHO TOLD US GEORDIE HAD DIED I WOZ ONLY SPEAKING HIM 2 YESTERDAY MORNING AND HE WOZ OK THEN I WOZ PLEASED 2012 HAD GONE ONLY SAD BIT ABOT WOZ THE LAST TIME I SAW MY DAD ALIBE WOZ 2012 ON THE 2ND MARCH HE DIED THE 3RD OF MARCH AT 220AM

i no broken bones is easy to fix thy can heal but a loss of a loved 1 u can never fix 

last xmas my dad woz alive and my dads mate my surgate unlcle if id new it woz my dads last i wishd i spoilt him more his bday tomrowo his 1st 1 up in the or shud say out side the gates of heven he used to say im not going in side thm gates till u all come i beleve it with my dad i just hope thr is bars wesr he can get booze and restronts wear he can get food and beting shops so he can still do his horses and a paper shop so he can read his news papers i just…

bulling can be a loss it makes people lose confidens in thm selfs and people have dun silly thngs to thm selfs coz of bullying i woz bulled my self wen i woz youngar

it tims i wish i cud have a time mashin to go back in tim to spend more time wit my dad and othr family members i hav lost i no i wud stilll do the sam mistakes i made i all ways feal guilty tht i left my dad on tht last horbel ward on the 2nd march if i had not bean compling to the nurses i wud of had a bit more tim to spend wit him the 3rd of march we got ther 2 late he died at 220am we got ther at 230am i wisht i spent more tim with som of my cuzens who died…

ITS HARD TRYING 2 STAY STRONG ESPESLY DECEMBAR CUMING UP AND HAVING MELT DOON TEARS NO DAD HEAR THISS YER U GET SIC OF SEANING THE XMAS ADS ON TV AND XMAS TREES UP ALL REDY SHOPS PLAYING XMAS SONGS ALL REDY I NO I MUST SOND LIKE EBERNEZER SCRUGE BUT IT IS HARD TO STAY STRONG ALL THE TIME I NO XMAS TIME WOZ MY DADS TIME HE WOZ BORN ON BOXING DAY IN 1935 AND DIED THE 3RD OF MARCH THIS YER …

if god and the devil are not twins are they man and wife is god man or woman or is the devil man woman i no ther is a lot of tark abot god on hear and difrent relinges is ther 1 god or is ther more thn 1 god and r they all relatd to each otheris evry 1 ther great grand childrn i hope i dont ofend any 1 for this…

some days i nead a good kick up the behind do i nead to sea a dr anser probely yes but do i go no why coz im scared in case i get admited to hosptile why am i scared coz i have this silly idda  in my hed if i do get admitet u dont come out there alive i shud relize my cuzens husband he cum out there alive and his fithing canser  my mum keaps on saying my breathing is geting worse go and sea a dr and like father like dorter i…

if heven is a plase on earth wear is earth is earth a good plase to live or is it a bad plase to live like h e l l or is earth the h e l l we live in wit bad thng happing evry day

wen we 1st saw tht film my dad saed yrs ago life is a never ending story evry day we go thru a difrent chapta in our livess we do 

i rember tht john lenon song imangine my dad saed that song madee sense

there is sum days i want to foget bday cuming up coz my dad is not ther to enjoy it he enjoyed bdays beter then others did                                                                                                               xmas coz it woz my dads tim of yer it woz his bday boxing day and he enjoyed xmas like a big kid even new yer he enjoyed allways hopet on news yer day the yer wood be a good 1 well not this yer             easter he enjoyed only for the sweats he cud eat 

my dad used to all wayz say that no body is perfect that we all make mistaks in life he woz all ways holding on at the last minit to get medical help i tak after him for tht like father like dorter made mistaks to my dad used to make mistakess i no a few yrs ago i did sumthnk very silly making sure my dad woz ok went to crush cans for the resycal bin but i went and got my foot cort in the can crusher wish i no woz very silly wen people used to judge me or any body else he wud tell them yore…

evry tim i sea that advert i thnk  of my dad c  o p d but the post mortem 3 difrent repoerts wish i dont whis 1 is the rithet 1 and seaing the person on the oxygain tank reminds me of my dad it duze bean short of breath is a early sinn it is go to the dr i no i shud go more often i get wong off the dr for not cuming early but  i all ways say i dont want to waste yore time but he sa he says im not wasting his time my dad woz the same wud rather hold on and fite him self then sea the dr but in…

i dont no wer we wud be with out the inter net and this web site whish is a big help to every 1 and geting yore fealings downn wish duze help 

this yer has not bean the best yer wen my dad died in march enen the bging of the yer a gud frend of the family died of canser she never told any 1 she had till we al fond out she died thn my dad went evry 1s favret uncle favert cuzen and favret nephew to my great ant who is still alive thn another frend of the family died in juley thn my cuzen gav birth to a still birth baby boy he wodd of bean a great great cuzen thn we find out my cuzens husband has canser and geting chemo for it thn we…