In the 15 months that Andy has passed I've had many dreams of him, I even partly believe I have even experienced what some people call visitation dreams and also a couple of other strange occurrences, even though I admit too being a total non believer in a so called afterlife before Andy died, I'm finding myself becoming convinced that there is indeed something,  especially after last nights experience,  for the past few days I've been extremely down (well more than usual as I'm always down)…

I believe the following describes grief with all its ups and downs.  It was written by Ceci Frost:

The one thing you can predict when it comes to the journey of grief is that it will be unpredictable. The most random and smallest sound, smell, or sight can push you emotionally. It’s typically when you least expect it. This is when you realize that you have memories—some that you forgot about—that are attached to specific songs,…

how can it be 3 years on Saturday? it feels like yesterday when you went away. my beautiful son shawn. I miss you so bad . you are and always will be the love of my life forever. my depression is getting worse, I pray each night to die, to hold you forever. to hear your voice and to hear  MOM I LOVE YOU  again.  I tried to be with you but it did not work. I wont give up shawn, im coming home with you. my life is over the day you went away. im ready ,  I don't want to suffer any more, I don't…

Billy today is 16 days you have been gone.  No it is not any easier.  I'm still so angry and hurt by all this.  You see you were my world at home and work even though you didn't think so at times.  I'm angry cause I knew you went somewhere Saturday and purchased your whatever the heck it was(dope) and i didn't say anything I didn't even mention it. I found your phone and saw all the text of you purchasing it and from who this made me even angrier. I called this person and confronted them and…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so empty inside.  I am literally on auto pilot.  Going through the motions, and telling people what they want to hear, so they will stop asking me how I am, and go away. I know they are just being caring, but I am tired, and exhausted.  Too exhausted to keep explaining that I am not ok, I am dying inside, so instead I just say "Yeah I am ok."

Does it ever end, or will I spend what time I have left on this miserable planet in misery, and heartache.  Because I feel that…

William(Billy) the love of my life you left us so suddenly.  I know I have your memories and we had some great ones.  As i sit here watching the cursor on my computer blink Im lost I have no words.  Billy i know I got to spend some great years with you and I do cherish them.  Your laugh was infectious with many Cajun stories to tell.  But you see on October 16th 2016 you stole half of me.

I found you the way I never hoped to see you and Cas was with me.  We had to deal with the…

My sisters  husband left her 3 months ago just walked out, today she rang me and told me that he's come back, and all I could do was put the phone down and sob and sob, I should be happy for, she was devastated when he left, but all I feel is jealously and anger because she has her man back and I will never have mine back, I hate that I've become this jealous monster, who can't stand to see people happy, this is not who I am ,or this is not who I was, too be honest I don't know who the hell…

I miss you.

I wish that was enough to accurately describe how I feel, but it does not even come close. I don’t just miss you; I feel so much more than a mere longing.

I miss your laugh, your lame jokes, your hugs, your voice, and your presence in my life. I miss your “hi” text in he mornings we weren’t together, the “be there soon” and the hours of time we spent together just talking and sharing our dreams and hopes. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I can’t say it…

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After my father's death, I became so emotionally unstable and I have had a lot of trouble motivating myself to do anything including being alive. My dog came to live with me 2 months ago because she gave me a sense of purpose having to take care of her and she helped me pull my self together and comfort me. I had been doing much better with her by my side and for the first time since I lost my dad I felt like I had my life together and could move forward. Today she had to go live with my mom…

I'm trying to leave all these pain full thoughts behind and move forward , its not easy as my shrink says ..... How do u forgive your own mom for pushing u away when my dad was ill and died that's my main pain full thing ...