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How to see you when I have to cover my eyes with black
How to touch you when I have to learn to catch the air
How to hear you when the silence sould make my ears to pain
How my soul would come close to yours when it is closed in my body
Sometimes is like you are alive through my mind and my eyes and sometimes is like I am dead through your loss
It is like to ask you to make a big step having one leg.
more than seven months tonight. It is Friday. The worst day of the week for me. Every Friday I feel that I did not spend during the previous days enough time for my brother because of the day to day thoughts (mostly thoughts about my job). Every Friday I find myself crying for the loss and begging for a one second touch.
Once Jim called me and both made the first five questions just the same and simoultanesly. We closed the phone laughing getting no answers...
walking to the church for his funeral, a car stoped and the driver asked me if I knew where was a football stadium called 'paradise'. I did not know that a so called stadium existed in my town. I have not asked till now if there is such a stadium (Finally I saw this stadium some months later)
I and my brother were at the hospital. An old man (about 80) at the opposite bed was asking himself what he had done and now he is suffering.. we both wondered how, despite his age, he had not learned during his whole life that things do not go this way...
One thing that makes me feel better is that my brother did not live these moments I pass through.
He had a lot of <hospital> experiences during his life. However he managed to grown two children, to be a very well paid accountant and most of all to live his life with dignity. His wife is also a very remarkable person.
I know that I will feel half from now on. I have lost my parents (my dad before 24 years) and my mother (before almost two years) both by cancer. I can accept this way of life and I understand that it is not how long we live here on earth but what we are doing. However the loss of my brother is different. Jim I miss you
first crhistmas without you
Ten months after.
At the beginning there is the feeling that he will visit you. Later, you know he is around.
More than 14 months. We slept together last night?? Maybe
This summer I choose for spending my holidays a small hotel called "Dimitris rooms" near the sea in Maganari Ios. Dimitris is the name of my brother.
There is a little gulf there and there was only a small boat. Its name was "two brothers"...
The date before yesterday was our birthday. JIM I MISS YOU.
There are a lot reasons to call for his soul. First, to give me the assurance of life after death (definitily selfish orientated). Second to live my life with less pain (definitly selfish also). BUT AT THE END THE MAIN FEELING IS THAT I MISS MY BROTHER IN THIS LIFE.
25 months. I feel deeply in depression.
50 months. I miss him. I expect him
4 and half years. Saturday tomorrow. Sometimes I wonder how I am moving on without him
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Michail, thank you so much for sharing this much with me... The thought of my brother living through this separation is the only thing more painful than being the one living through it. One of the first things people said to me after he died was, "He wouldn't have made it if it was you who died." I never knew what to think of that, but I do find comfort in the hope that he doesn't feel as alone as I do. Once again, thank you for reaching out, and I wish you the best.
Hello Michail and welcome to the forum:-) I have identical twin daughters, so can somewhat understand the close bond...so sorry for the loss of your twin brother...I pray God comforts you until you see him again.