Bernice, im so sorry for your loss, I know your pain. when my son shawn went away, I died to. the pain is so unbearable each and every day. I just want to go with him, I pray every night to go. I feel so empty and lost. I cry every day and I go see him every day no matter the weather. shawn is my life the love of my life. its such a bad dream I cant wake up from. more then any thing in the world I need to be with him. my heart is so shattered, ill never be the same  ever. I don't believe in god any more yet I pray to my son to take my hand and take me with him.  thank you for careing and I wish you the best love and hugs  kim