Wendy,
You will be in my prayers. My wife Nanette died on Sept 26th at the age of 52. I had just brought her dinner and she was making herself comfortable with a pillow on her lap and the plate on it when I shut the bedroom door. My daughter found her slumped over the plate with the plastic wrap still over it.
Grief has me feeling paralyzed and struggling to deal with daily tasks. I can't imagine how difficult it is to have to care for a baby when feeling like this.
I pray God gives you the strength to carry on and the Hope of His peace.
It is only by the grace of God and the prayers of others that my daughter and I have been able to get out of bed each day. Neither one of us has an appitite and both have lost weight.
I know my hair has turned more grey in only two weeks.
God Bless you and your baby.

I am sorry for your loss. i CAN'T IMAGINE THE EXACT FEELINGS YOU FEEL , BUT I DO KNOW THE AGONY YOU FEEL. I know it . But I know that time does not heal wounds. GOD DOES. I have had losses too within more than a few years now. But the pain is there. But it gets better. I hope to be able to share and reach out and be a friend . i CAN USE A GOOD FRIEND WHO ALSO UNDERSTANDS WHAT IT MEANS TO LOSE A MOM AND DAD AND OTHER FAMILY RELATIVES. HUG, JOHN B.