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About Me:
My name is Lauren. I was born in Scotland, and raised all over the US. My parents have been divorced since I was 4, and I grew up with my mom forest of my life.
This past summer my Mom came to Memphis with her partner, my 3 sisters, and my 13 year old cousin Tori.
My mom surprised me a day early, and they were all in my aparemt when I got home from work. What a great surprise. From that day till that weekend my mom decorated my home from top to bottom beautifully, we did amazing things, went to amazing places, created endless memories.. Unforgettable memories. Needless to say, the trip had a piece of my heart that I would carry with me forever. I remember specifically sitting on the hotel rooms couch with her, and I rested my head on her chest, listening to her heart beat. Almost like I was a kid again, it gave me peace and comfort. I asked her, " there's nothing like a love from a mother to a child is there?" out of nowhere, almost divine. She replied, "nope. You will understand when you have children." my mom and I at that point knew I had finally grown up, and we had finally reached that point where my Mom was my best friend. We talked daily, laughed about funny memories or caught up on our daily drama.
2 months later.. September 9, 2012. I ran into an old co worker who worked with a girl I could not stand. She had recently lost her mother to liver failure and because of my own ignorance, and lack of grace I had no remorse. That weekend my mom, her partner, my sisters, and my cousin Tori were traveling from Michigan to Chicago to celebrate my sisters birthday on Sepetember 10th. I was supposed to meet them there that weekend to get a new car my mom and her partner Lea had just purchased for me. I wasn't able to go because I had no money. The truth is three days before I had gotten a tattoo 3 roses on my arm to reresent my mother and how beautiful she was to me and one for each of my sisters
That night I got a phone call from my cousin Chelsea around 5 pm. My Aunt Kara whom I rarely speak to asked me how I was doing.. I told her I was fine and started giggling .. Asked her why she's calling, and that's when I heard the pause. The one you know only ba news follows. My heart sank, I heart her crying softly trying to hide the fear and shaking in her voice. I said "oh god, Aunt Kara what's wrong?" she said, " Lauren, there's been an accident." I fell to the floor instantly, like my mind had no control over my body.. And for the first time in my life I felt what weeping truly was.
She told me Lea was airlifted to a hospital and was alive. My two twin sisters were rushed by ambulance to a nearby hospital, and my cousin Tori was as well. My mother, no one knew her whereabouts. I thought to myself surely shes looking for everyone. I called my aunt Kelly who was at the hospital, I asked her if everyone was ok she said "yes." I asked her if she found my mom, she replied.." Lauren, your mother was killed on impact." the most unforgettable, regrettable, heart wrenching, stabbing, and painful words a 21 year old, DAUGHTER has to here.
I was supposed to meet them that weekend and couldnt because I couldn't afford it. Truth is, I had gotten a tattoo for my mom and sisters. 3 roses for each of them, and roses to represent how absolutely beautiful inside and out my mom was to me. My hero. My best friend.
I couldn't get a flight home till the next morning, and cried the entire way. When I got there I visited my baby sisters first. They knew, we cried together, that's what most of my time entailed. When I saw Lea, my moms partner that's when I broke. Sobbing, weeping, gasping for air. Just wanting my Mom back.
They were 45 minutes away from home. A man whose wife and daughter were in the car behind him. He lost control of the wheel and crossed the two yellow lines, and Lea tried to swerve but it was too late. The man hit them head on, and the car rolled at least 5 times. The man too was killed on impact. This is my story.
About my Loss:
I don't know much about this thing called grief, but each and every day is a constant battle. I know my Mom is with me, guiding me and providing me strength. I live my life in honor of her now, to make her proud.

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