Patti Kegley
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About my Loss:
I lost my mother May 8th, 2012 and it has absolutely devestated me! I am so broken and so depressed over the whole thing. I am a nurse and feel like I should have been able to do more to save her. She was adm to the hospital after a VERY MINOR stroke and transfered to rehab. The hospital that she went to for rehab delivered poor care at best.Her first few days were ok but then she just kept getting weaker and was vomiting and medically, something was going on and no one was paying attention. I voiced concerns and even asked (begged) to have her tranfered to another hospital or another floor but everyone kept blowing me off. I filed a formal complaint with the hospital. I met with her physician and pleaded my case. I was nice, I was mean, I cried, I laughed. I spoke softley I screamed! It didn't matter how I approached these people, no one seemed to listen. On 5/4, I asked her to be transfered to a medical floor for IV fluids. She was so weak and had been vomiting for a week. They doctor told me she didn't need transfered because they could do all she needed on the rehab unit. I begged them to give her IV fluid and asked to see her labs but they just kept saying "we are on top of it". On the morning of 5/5, I received a call saying that they were tranfering her to a different floor where they could give her IV fluid - Really??? I had asked for that for a week. I spend the entire day with her at her bedside, watching her throw up then sleep then wake up to throw up again and then fall back to sleep. They had IV fluid running but it was running at such a slow rate. I asked them to increase the rate and they said "she is ok". On the morning of 5/6 at 4:14 in the morning, I received a call from the hospital clergy saying my mom has taken a turn for the worse. They were doing chest compressions and putting a breathing tube in and transfering her to the ICU. The clergy told me and my dad to come as soon as possible. We spent all day Sunday at her bedside - things were not looking good the doctor said. She became so dehydrated from all of the vomiting that her electrolytes were depleted and her protein levels were in the toilet! all due to malnutrition from her vomiting for so long! On Monday 5/7, the doctor told us she was in multi system organ failure and would not recover. On Tues 5/8, my father and I made the hardest decision we have ever had to make...we decided it was best for her to take her off life support.
I am crushed, my family is broken hearted! Everyone seems to be moving on, still grieving but moving on. I can't! I cry all the time. I don't like going out of the house. I feel like I failed her. I should have faught harder. She told me the Friday before she died that she was scared. She asked me to help her. I tried but I failed. She was not ready to die. She was scared to death of dying. So while I can invinsion other people that are close to me that have died, in a peaceful place, I only imagine my mother looking down, crying, missing us all so much!
I can't get past this. It is effecting my entire life. I use to find such joy in everything. Now I can't stand anything or anyone. My relationship with my fiance is struggling from this. he is so supportive but all I want to do is lay around. I am sad, I am angry. I know I need help. I know my mother would not want this for me. But I miss her so much and I hate that I could not save her.
"The loss of a mother is the first sorrow wept without her"

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