imsorry for ur loss i cant begin to imagin the pain of osing a child it doesnt matter if its  100 kids u have each one is very special. myson is turning 2 in oct.9 and if it wasnt because i had him i dont think i would have been able to handle as well the death of my mother . my son means the world tome and im so sorry u had to go through that. the have always said that losing ur parents or your kids is one of the worst pain in the world and i admire that with 3 kids your still going on even if your hurting inside you are increadible. i am here if you ever need to talk