I have done the same thing, started house projects and not finished them. I loose by ability to focus and complete things. I am always tired and feel like Im walking around in a bad fog. 

One of those days where I don't even want to get dressed...but, I made up for it the rest of the week. I've painted half the rooms of the house. "Celebrated" my birthday and my son's 26th while remembering that it is exactly a year ago our "hell" started. I've handed over everything I could think of for having taxes done. But today I'm just wiped out and don't want to do anything but watch sappy movies on TV. What a life we live....Fran

Today is my 3 month "anniversary" of Bill's death. "Anniversary" has a whole different meaning now.In some ways it seems so much longer than that. I've been waiting for him to come "visit" me or haunt me, but, he must be too busy hunting and fishing with his dad in heaven. I guess I'll just have to wait. 

Words don't mean much. You hear what others say, trying to be helpful, but, unless they are going thru it...it makes THEM feel better. In face, I think the first couple of weeks I was the one consoling everyone else. I was too numb to feel much the first month. And I had gone back to work and was trying to concentrate on that...and all that paperwork you have to do when you deal with a death. NOW is when I'm feeling his death more. What keeps me moving is knowing that he would be very disappointed in me if I curled up in the fetal position and let the grief run my life and that of our "children".

Leesa, you have struck a deep chord. I lost my husband Nov. 6, 2014, also to lung cancer. You are a bit younger than me, and your children are younger than mine, but, the pain you are suffering is the same as mine. We had worked hard, doing everything together, planning on spending our "golden years" together. We were both over 30 when we met and got married so we KNEW we were right for each other. I don't know how to comfort you, since I'm still working thru things myself...But, I just wanted to let you know that others DO know what you are going thru. I feel the anger you feel, the frustration, the confusion, the gut-wrenching loss...maybe that's  good thing.It means we really loved. What would it mean if we just picked up and acted like nothing had happened...like the past years didn't matter. We Loved!