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About my Loss:
i lost my mum to metastatic melanoma not long ago,its coming up to the first anniversery of her death! i was 18 when i lost her,i knew she was really sick but i just never thought she would actually die i just always though nah stuff like this doesnt happen to us she will be fine because she is my mum and she as to be fine.... in the last months of her life i wasnt working and became her carer,doing things a 18 year old shoulnt be doing,but i did it because i love her, me and my brothers and dad slept at the hospital the night before she died, my poor dad had to wake me and my brothers up by saying "your mother is gone" i thought i was dreaming i started yelling out "no,no she is not,no,no" but there she was in her hospital bed no longer breathing. ever since that day i have changed,i feel empty, and i cry alot,when i think of what happend i get so mad and take it out on other people. i just dont understand why this happend! i miss her so much she was the head of this family,she always had all the answers,and now i can just tell my dad is so lost,my brothers never speak about what happened, i just wish she was here to make it all better. i try really hard to warn my friends and family about the dangers of the sun and always tell them to put sunscreen on but they either dont take me seriously,and one of my friends even laughs at me when i tell her too. i dont understand how people can see how sick my mum was and that she died from this and not take it seriously! .. im just so mad and so lost,i need my mum she is suppossed to be here to see me and my brothers grow up,this just isnt fair!

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At 4:46am on January 26, 2010, Rochelle Kramer said…
I dont know how it is to have to take care of others after my mom passed. But, I can feel your pain. I lost my mom at 17, its been 3 years and I still have trouble dealing. I know how it is to be confused, not able to sleep, stressed, no one to turn to. its fustrating. Especially when you have friends saying that they are there for you but when you try talking about it, the room gets quiet, they get weird. I know how it feels to be too young to be going through this. 1 year is still pretty fresh. I am hoping that you get something from this...but what I've learned is to take the good with the bad....and seriously TAKE the good. you deserve it! im sure your mom would want you to enjoy the good in life.
At 11:07pm on January 21, 2010, beverly ann said…
i know what you're going through. i held my mother's hand,while she took her last breathe. i want to say things will get better in time,but i haven'tgot to that stage yet.i'm sorry for your lose. may god spend be with you.
At 9:45am on January 10, 2010, Diane Lamas said…
Dear Kirsti,
I can only imagine how difficult it must be to have lost your mum at such a young age. My mom passed recently, on Nov. 22nd at the age of 81, and she had many conditions which put her at risk but still it was a real shock when it happened. And it does leave a big hole as our mom's are the one person who has been with us from the moment of our conception.
Your Mom is with you still but she is not in a body like we are anymore, so she isn't suffering anymore, but those left behind are.
I may not be able to say much to you that will help your pain right now, but you aren't alone, so many people have lost their mom's and others that they love and need so much. Sometimes it's hard but one thing I've learned is that it's important to try and think positively and not let yourself fall into a negative spiral, and I know it's hard not to have it happen sometimes, but perhaps talking to a bereavement counselor will help and also know that you are stronger than you think you are and so are your dad and your brothers. It is just going to take time and please give yourself the time and be gentle with yourself as much as possible.
Perhaps in a bereavement group you may find a young person like yourself who is going through the same thing and together you may be able to help each other get through this time. Just try to remember your Mum doesn't want you to be sad or to suffer, but she is no longer suffering and that is one good thing out of it all.
I hope I have helped in some small way. Please take care of yourself and know that your Mum's love is shining down on you now and always just like always. You can picture it shining down on you as a beauiful golden light that goes with you everywhere.
Hugs,
Diane
At 9:40am on January 10, 2010, Money Jensen said…
I'm sorry for your loss. i was 19 when my mother and sister passed. i felt the same way, lost and angry at the world. It will take a long time to feel somewhat normal again. i hope that you too can regain some of your sanity it took a long while for me to not be so moody. it's hard to lose a parent so young. if you would like to talk email me any time.
 
 
 

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