Julie, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I have not lost my spouse or loved one like that, but I lost my son. I did separate from someone who I loved with all my heart. I cried every day. In a situation like yours, it must be really hard! Try to remember that your partner's family are all going through their own pain and dealing the best they can. Try to remember the times you shared and think of what he would want for you. I bet he would want you to go on, cherish his memory but make new ones with your kids and eventually your grandkids. I wish you peace and love, try to just keep going forward....someday things will get easier for both of us. I believe that with all my heart. xoxoox