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Julianna Female Boca Raton, FL United States: Share on Facebook MySpace Tweet

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About Me:: I am a single mom of a young daughter who left my job to care for my mom the last year of her life. I would do it all over again. It was the hardest and best thing I have ever done and it is even harder now trying to pick up all the pieces of my life and start over.

About my Loss:: I lost my mom at home in my arms July 21 2014. I was her caregiver for several years as she lived with me and helped me as well with my daughter. The last month of her life was horrific and not peaceful at all.The last 2 weeks she suffered so much as I watched at her side. I watched her breaths become gasping and actually felt her heart stop. and she was gone. I miss her so much. Im glad I was with her as she requested but now those images I cant shake away. It haunts me. Especially the day before she passed she was in like a coma but then she woke up and looked at us and after being non verbal for 4-5 days reached her arm up to the ceiling and shouted no.Was she frightened? What did see? She was hallucinating I know but she was brave. Life is not the same. I lost my best friend,my home,my job everything! Now I am trying to start over for my child. I am alone and depressed as I feel things will never be joyous again.But I wont give up, for her I will be strong and be a good mom to my daughter like my mom was to me. I just feel like I lost my connection to the world